After returning to the collective reality I often found my thoughts driving me towards a return to this state, yet within conscious and practical control. I missed the vision, the utter compassion, the synchronicity and connection of all things. At the same time there was a passive acceptance that I was not prepared for a return. Nearly three years have passed now.
What an incredible experience this has been. Where peace gradually reconstituted action and the force of will, becoming more of a conscious process then just a sort of submissiveness. Subservient to the dictation of an expansion and solidification of identity and the unique expression of Nature that is I, where I have gone in mind and of body, strikes me with awe in this moment. Often I say that I could not have consciously chosen the path to manifest by any means better than such has been laid at my feet.
Yet this process has not been free of will, rather the ability to apprehend and apply choice that reflects my intentions has slowly returned. An alignment of who I am with what I see and what I do has been near fully restored. At the same time a new found trust, depth of awareness, and fundamental structure has been built, naturally, through the Grace of a God both Omnipresent and infallible.
This last week has been riddled with radical shifts of consciousness. The subconscious layers of conditions drop one by one as the events of each day highlight such. Each day the people and situations of my life bring about exactly the right revelation or release at precisely the right time. Quickly following as an application or expression is the quality that has been remembered, apprehended, or discovered for the first time within my awareness.
As we ascend, as the density of our perception lessens and our awareness fills with observance of new depths of which the subconscious has been conditioned or programmed by the energetic patterns of our shared reality. The original design of Nature, as such is relative to my individual experience, resolves into a conscious, or more specifically Tantric, quality of moment to moment existence. All routes are retraced, each condition prior to Ones current state is reevaluated and either resolved further or released.
The release is dependent on wether or not the quality serves a purpose of illumination, the disillusionment of what was truly but a catalyst. The substance of which the flame is ignited becomes part of the new product and no longer resembles the root of it's own source. The truth has been assimilated as part of the shape or nature of the consciousness such serves.
Some of the more radical revelations, from which Grace seems to flow, are programs of which the portion of self that extends beyond immediate experience are still processing. Like ripples from a big splash, an entropy occurs, where one light enables countless flames to be lit. This does not mean that I is central to all else beyond my individual point of reference, for such is always catalyzed by a seemingly external or independent function. For the sake of Absolution, Self-evident Truth, this is exactly how such occurs.
If how we see creates what we do, think, and feel then that which we create reflects our conscious understanding. With each action is written on the cosmos this point of reference, this independent structure, of which the content of life must conform to. Just one ripple amongst an ocean of consciousness, frothing with potential. Through how we see we reprogram Nature to meet our relative beliefs, if not we continue to perpetuate that which serves as the catalyst for such.
It is all strangely quantifiable through Alchemy, Vedic or Qabbalistic traditions, and as has been instill upon my beliefs, is readily available for any who are prepared and willing for the revelation of such.
Okay, so let's talk specifics...before we finish such a bold statement of perspective it is best to provide plenty of doorways for relation, and therefore comprehension, available to those who would manifest such.
....immediately I recognize just how much content leads to the context of such an epiphany...
One of the major revelations which can be put into rather brief terms, is that of intuition and trust. When a veil begins to drop and vision is extending into the principles of the new insight, there is an emotional response. How we feel seems to be projected backwards in time in order to force the process of logical incorporation....this one factor of the mind's function for consciousness is a tangent of which I will not subject the reader to, yet I do wish to imply consideration of such, posing a question of such, may bring about verification for the reader.
My emotional reactivity had to do with traffic here in Bali. Where native drivers seem oblivious at times, most of the time, to what I had come to see as "common sense". A fear based system of which the rules of the road are formulated tends to create persistent judgement as to the actions of others. At times I would even just blurt out loud my dissatisfaction for the lack of observance to these "common" rules of traffic.
As I just said, this is a fear based perspective, I was subconsciously believing that what I know as safe and considerate was a shared understanding. At least, shared between those who adhere to the rules, those who did not were crazy, unconscious, oblivious, arrogant, among other things.
Then it hit me.
Driving along the streets intuitively, with presence and a trust as to the Nature of life in general, results in a lack of adherence to any rule system other than that of intuition alone. If I were to trust that everyone around me is doing what feels right, investing their awareness in what is happening around them, and that life was progressing according to a perfect unfolding of resolution, then there would be no space or purpose for judgement. A person isn't crazy for going so fast, they are spending their own time as what feels right and driving in a way that reflects that.
When I allow them to be fully and avoid applying what I feel or think is right to them...when I do not in my mind or by my mouth or actions tell them "you are wrong" I empower their intuition to best serve everything else. I do not throw a wrench in their proverbial machinery, our energies co-exist cooperatively and our interaction reflects this. The person passes me by at a hundred miles an hour, and I stay to my side of the road to let them pass...no conflict arises.
The accident I had here some time ago reflected an adherence to this so called common sense, it actually got me injured because I assumed I knew what anothers truth was. That they would use a blinker, or that the car I was passing wouldn't be driving so quickly headlong in the middle of the road. So in my contraction of possibility, holding fast to preconditioned beliefs rather than intuition and trust, I met a conflict with my subconscious pattern directly...in the form of colliding with another motor bike.
Everyone turned out okay, it resolved quickly and I walked away thinking, they should have been more aware, they should have used their blinker, I should not have been in a rush....very practical ideas to think...yet filled with judgement, fundamentally in the belief that error or mistake can occur in a process of Nature which is in my heart as Absolution, perfect and without error. If you asked me I would say, "oh it worked out perfectly because now I wear my helmet, they might remember to use their blinker, and time was set just right for synchronicity to unfold." Although there is an air of perfection in the situation there is also in essence a distrust, judgement, and reapplication of a static system of belief.
The opportunity to see that my beliefs had contracted form possibility into an example of the fear that underlay, into what is an original pattern of Nature...where obstacle is required as a means for adaptation and change...rather than one that adheres to trust, allowance of possibility, pure intuition and a dynamic perspective of life.
The revelations of this depth pop up on a daily basis now, resolving into a situation that verifies such and at which point digressing to the next aspect or depth of subconscious where a preconditioned or unconscious pattern of belief rests.
My intention is to live the highest vibration, to live in service of the all, to be a living expression, a living work of art, for which my own Nature creates. I choose to be a part of the matrix of life, I choose to be available for the manifestation of that which will bring forth the revelation and awakening of the inner Nature of others. I stay grounded as long as such is relative to all else around me....we ascend together, or we remain on the ground level resolving that which might compromise the state to which we are returning to.
Thank you Source of all that is, that which is beyond the mind, beyond my experience, and of which all is enabled to be. How gracious and magnificent this process is, how radical God empowers the Nature of the individual to be independent yet connected and unified cosmos of It's own. How absolutely incredible is this return to Grace, this ascent into the fulfillment of Our creative potential, for which I have a resounding gratitude, trust, and willingness to continue discovering manifest.
Blessed Be,
Nathan
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