The Nature of Mind

What follows is the channeling of possibility, a realm of understanding that is beyond what science or biology can offer from the limited stance of defined "fact". The information I offer is what I have come to realize through contemplative meditation, relation to the processes of Nature, and research into the scientific, spiritual, and biological works of others. We can dive into possibility and see what feels right, yet there will always be mystery enshrouding the Absolute truth of the minds workings. For this is how creation works, we leave just out of reach the realms of which comprehension would result in separation from the reality we share. My only hope is that those who would seek so find a resonance within that sparks a curiosity about life and It's fantastical workings, that we may share this endeavor of life as a mystical and perfect process.

The Mind is Nature's greatest gift to It's Self, a point of expansion where creation has found the ability to become Self-realized. By "Self" I am referring to the world of experience, the content of life of which we observe and interact with beyond Being. Through the growth and resolution of an individuals mind we become a point of reference for all else external while also solidifying out own position within creation. We become Nature awakened within Nature, a catalyst for the highest potentials to be realized.

As all else in life, the mind is made of divisions within divisions. None are any more important to recognize and develop as the next beyond that which is for the individual more relevant. We have Unconscious, Subconscious, and conscious Mind, of which our state of Being is decided. Then there is Ego, ID, and Super-ego, the parts of mind of which our interaction with the external is decided. Each of these qualities and realms of awareness are unique and vital to the rest, the structure of the mind is truly an immaculate one.

Let us take each of these six aspects and briefly delve into comprehension of the possibilities. As I normally suggest, Truth can only come from within the individual, and so it is for your own point of observation and interaction that the following can contain importance, relevance, or realization. What is true for me may be quite different for another, and although there appears to be certain Absolutes we can agree to share at the depths of introspection, even there do we find difference in application and meaning.

The unconscious mind has to do with the structure of reality, and very much so the shared reality. The world where each person interacts and leaves an energetic imprint for the rest to observe is the space of the unconscious. Now, we normally refer to "unconsciousness" as when there is a lack of awareness, and this can also be true. Yet when we use the term in this way we are talking about action as a result of subconscious process. We enter a space of which comprehension escapes us, of which awareness has little to do with what we are creating or observing.

Unconsciousness in the mind represents a space of which intuition is drawn from beyond our own conscious reason. This can mean that we are reacting to emotional data without applying rationality, this can also mean, very simply, that we are not aware, that we are driven by an underlaying program. This program lay in the subconscious, yet holds roots in our deeper reality independent of choice.

Perhaps unconsciousness is the most difficult to put into definition, as inherently such is without definition. The dark space of the mind, that which the light of consciousness must trickle from the subconscious inwards. The deepest reaches of mind, where the fabric of existence is integrated into Being, where the integral structure of Being rests.

The subconscious is a whole different story, the subconscious programs the unconscious as an intermediary for what we can acknowledge in our own active thought. This is where most of the magic happens, at least the magic that enables us to experience the unconscious structure through the portal of consciousness. We are not talking semantics, we are actually referring to depths of mind to which the Entity of consciousness experiences life. There are many ways to comprehend each level, yet only the subconscious realm can act as a platform for our travel into the depths of the unknown.

As children we are driven by unconscious process to program the subconscious, to create our minds layout, the ego, super-ego, and ID as we mentioned before. While the unconscious is the raw materials of a city, the subconscious is the content which fills such, the streets, buildings, parks and places of our life. We can repave, remove, or build new roads entirely, but the unconscious Earth still remains the platform to build such upon. So we begin to see through relation how the mind functions.

In this way consciousness is not only the great "I Am", the spark of awareness that observes what the Being creates, but also the active force of which all other levels of mind are tuned and aligned. The subconscious is the space of which the arrangement occurs, where we can apply the light of consciousness, the truth of which we have abstracted feeling from logical comprehension, and can therefore apply our free will.

Free will is not an illusion, although on most all dimensions of such we experience it as such. Emotional data wells up from the subconscious, through the checking upon experience, or the programs provided by an individuals life experience, and is then brought into the heights of which thought can access such. This can be an unconscious stream of thought of course, where we are simply relaying data as such is processed, without even a moment of direct interaction.

A state of intentional existence, where we directly apply a foundation of conscious truth to the subconscious, there by offering a new structure for the unconscious to integrate, is by no means an simple or easy place to reach. Free will is available to everyone, yet the content of our lives, the infinite information of the DNA and the bloodline that has developed such is pervasive. It is the light of awareness, the breaking down of structures which do not serve, that allow us to apprehend and apply this force.

We have safely hidden free will behind a perfect program of Nature. The design of which brings us to the path of which choice becomes an active factor. We must reach this passage, we must be given this opportunity. Wether or not we can abstract enough from the subconscious into the present moment and into our awareness to illuminate this potential is a matter of the individuals process, or karmic path.

Do not resign that the path of which You walk is that of unconsciousness, that of a perilous and inevitable reality. The recognition that what is created is a result of all else is the major portal for entering into a fully conscious realm. Only a sliver of acknowledgement is needed to break the thin yet pervasive layer of which free will rests behind destiny. For it is our charge as the living consciousness of Nature to transcend the original design, and become Ultimate creators within creation.

At this point the ego-super-ego, and ID comes in, the three depths of interaction. The resolution of these qualities of mind are what determines the amplitude of an individuals will. When I say amplitude I am truly speaking of vibration, for all is a spectrum of vibration, where consciousness and life can be related to the workings of sound.

The mind can be appear feeble and only slightly intriguing when we only consider such as a biological component, a limited, finite bit of matter. When we recognize that the sensory data of Being is interpreted on an incredibly deep level, that of which a matrix of vibration is transformed into physical reality, and such is not just an arbitrary thing we call "energy", we open up the possibility for amazing leaps in awareness and comprehension. The idea of energy can expand into an incredible array of potentials, or we could simplify such into just electrical charges, whereas no justice is done to the apparent truth.

As everything else in life, the three qualities of which our Being is integrated into life can be resolved into a high vibrational state. We will get into these in another blog, for we have traveled far and wide already, and there is much to consider. Possibility has become our ally, we have considered the unknown on a scale to which we are normally not offered.

Through this work we can find that the unconscious is not a bad thing, nor is such just a state of Being. The unconscious is a depth to which the immaculate structure of connectivity, of our shared reality, is enabled to be. When we do not apply consciousness, and instead simply react to what is happening, we are following the design of Nature, and we cannot falter. As we find the lessons do not come as easy in this way, they come direct and sometimes with great repercussions. Yet one way or another the unconscious mind will bring us to the path of free will, we need only to recognize this and actively choose to ignite a fire that has smoldered within as potential.

The subconscious has become the layout for how we rewrite the story of life. Our chemistry set, our city, our playground for unfolding the potentials of consciousness. We need nothing, and yet if we are inspired to do so we can radically shift existence through conscious interaction with the subconscious.

Consciousness, oh beautiful Entity of existence, how great you are. Magnificent and infinite child of Creation, eternal flame of the Divine...what will you create? Thank you for choosing to be born into a body, for choosing to illuminate life with your radiance. Thank you for Being, for reading this blog, and considering possibility, for we are each a drop in the ocean of the all, and yet as we are inseparable from the ocean, we are also this vast well of Creation.

Blessed Be,

Nathan

The Breath of Life

Recently a friend was making an inquiry to me about sacred geometry and we reached a question I had no answer for. This is always an exciting happening, some new possibility to ponder upon, a turn of which mystery illuminates. There is no feeling of need or seeking for all to be defined, actually my way is to let everything be dynamic, to hold a light grasp on how such is perceived. At the same time the question was just right for me to sift around in the potentiality and see what truth rose to the surface.

When describing how energy can unfold from one point there are two ways I deduce such, the first is through points which accumulate and create the dimensions of space, the second is through awareness expanding through spherical movements. Building a matrix of energy seems to call for both of these varieties to take place, yet consideration of this sort is dependent on a rather indefinable foundation, a void, vacuum, or nothingness that seems to be.

Paradox has to be One's bedfellow in metaphysical contemplation. There are Absolutes in creation, just as two plus two equals four (except of course when it doesn't!), but how do we define that which is in principle no thing? Okay, so this wasn't the question that put me into reflection, but it is the fork in the stream of thought that provided remembrance to a quality of Nature that had slipped from consciousness, even if only temporarily.

Through relation the solution was readily available and it took a matter of hours before I had something to offer. The question was something of the sort "why can't we look at both ways at the same time? where do the straight lines and curves meet in expansion?" My first idea was that we can't look at both happening in the same moment unless we are there, creating something out of nothing. That to combine the two is the essence of creation, and such would be as a seed falling from a tree. The difference between a story about a salad and actually eating the salad, some things must be experienced to be grasped even in the slightest.

Then it came to me, these are two ways of expansion from a masculine logical perspective, a static system of growth. All that is static can be comprehended as such through definition, through the masculine way of forming a structure. Yet the feminine is the movement off of this structure, the feeling that pushes one into two, or draws awareness into the sphere of It's Self. So there are two different parts that are also inherent to this system of quantifying energy and how the manifest world can be. The definition and the feeling.

If we can think the masculine side of creation than we can certainly feel the feminine side. Neither of these suggest that we have to transcend the physical or practical existence of such, for to Self-realize through a body is to already be in a body. Seems silly that we would come all this way just to be undone, let us not have fear of this faint possibility. If the prospect interests you than by all means don't let the way I see such represent anything more than just that, one perspective.

The feeling has been found off and on for me when I relate to birth, to a seed in the soil or that in the temple of the Goddess. What is found is the precursor that is not a void, creation appears to arise from content when we consider how anything can come into being as such is at this moment. A point of reference where everything coalesces into one, like the last word written on a cosmic book. A universe must be born into creation from another, this is what relation speaks to me.

Here rests that great epiphany we find immediately following that of "I AM", that "Nature IS." This is the tether of where all life flows from the vast unknown, a Tree of Life in the garden of eternity. The paradox that tenderly holds all that is like a wisp of smoke in It's fingers, dripping from It's lips as a vibration awakened into life. We are many and we are One. We are all that is and we are the reflection of a radiant light, fractures into countless rays, each unique and as glorious as the next.

We can be a woman and consider the masculine, or be a man and contemplate the feminine, but it takes two to tango. We must dance about in the bliss of union to create life, and while we build a static foundation, we are birthed from the dynamic. It is the Mother who brings the Son, the flower that produces the fruit. So the swirling about of the cosmos, the soup of divine potential, comes into focus through the energetic progression I spoke of briefly, and there is a separation when child is first born....but we are born in the world of our parents, into the Grace that is God. We are born into, not apart from, we grow as a seed into the immaculate forrest where our family awaits us.

No matter how far we wander we are always within something. We are always of creation, and therefore we always have all we need to find within us the feeling of birth, the feeling of newness, a reawakening from slumber into Being.

How does energy expand? Through contraction, turning inside out and right-side in, twisting and flowing about as a vortex that rises and falls at the same time. There are many ways to find the "sacred" that is of pure geometry, there are many ways to combine concepts and perspective into realization just as there are many ways for One to feel the movement of energy.

Now I see the union of the masculine concept of energy expansion. The point is a sphere, traveling straight lines while spinning about in the space of awareness. Connecting the central points of this Self-guided probe of existence we find the points that make up the masculine energy grid. Sometimes I forget that the flower of life is made of spheres, that to contemplate the tetrahedrons and octahedrons of geometry is to simply find points of reference within a sphere or within It's movements. The answer was there all along. Apparently sometimes we have to walk about when we have lost our way if we are to find a familiar marker, a post for which the memory and intuition of direction can rise out of.

I look forward to writing further about the specifics just mentioned. The familiar sense that creation is comprehendible from within creation by way of relation has been brought again into awareness. Never lost are we when only we go inside. The mind, the body, this world, filled with curiosity, energy, entangled strings of Nature discovering It's Self all rising as a feeling. Then trust billows forth from the fire within, radiating out as a warmth that could melt the ice of unconsciousness thought Being alone.

Great Mystery, parent of all that is, thank You for this reflection. For all the questions and challenges of perspective that initiate moments of awakening. The more that is shown in the web of possibility the more profound the silence of thoughtlessness. When the paint of life fills the canvas there is only a choice to consider or not, the natural state is just to look, feel, and let grow the light of inspiration.

May all your moments be filled with presence, gratitude, and art, your past be filled with lessons well learned, and the future riddled with endless opportunities to discover and infinite mystery to inspire.

Blessed Be,

Nathan

Hello possibility...

Sitting on my porch, looking out at the neat row of plants along the wall, a flower catches my eye. "Let me know you", I ask to my surprise. Then it comes to me, how can I know a flower? The seed from which it came, the way it stretches into the light, changing the sun into energy, the perpetual breath of prana that is it's existence, all little ideas mixed into a vast field of potential. "I will show you what I am if you will only see that you cannot know me", the flower responds....and in minds eye a vision blossoms.

First the energy is overwhelming, the fractal pastels of light shimmering as an ethereal diamond. The thought recedes until a silence spills forth from mind, into awareness, dripping into all sensations as pure presence. Then the vision shifts, a separation occurs of which all is know as part of my own existence and an incomprehensible sense of gratitude for the entirety of Nature as part of my Being breaks the silence.

Coming back into my awareness of body, leaning forward eagerly in my chair, the world telescopes into focus. As a whisper I hear "a glimpse is all I can show you, for that is all the vision from embodiment can withhold, there is only possibility within knowing". For One cannot "know" a flower, even when grasping the immaculate through a moment of relation, all that truly resides when again I am I is possibility.

In general we have defined knowing through the masculine, that to "know" is to have a static unchanging concept of how something exists. A chair is held in knowing as being stable, that we can sit on it without a thought, yet even a chair can collapse under our weight, or perhaps hold an unnoticed whoopie cushion for our surprise and delight. Now we don't have to be fearful of these possibilities, really we can be quite excited about them, as we know even a little fall can provide a much needed lesson or realization.

The idea that all is in a state of change is quite a general agreement when openly considered between individuals. Actually this is one of the few truly static qualities of Nature, an unchanging principle due to the paradoxical function of such. Let me briefly share the "four Laws of Creation" as quoted through the channeling of the Entity Bashar.

-You exist, and in some form you always will.

-The One is all and the all is One

-What you put out you get back in

-Change is the only constant -except for the first three Laws.

All of these laws can be found as Absolutes, or static functions of Nature, through the introspection of One's own Being and Self. As I understand to put all of these into the context of "I" leads to the Absolute sense of such. My assumption is that they are spoken as "you" in order to skip over the need for explanation as to the difference, which I will also pass over for the time being.

So much opens up when we recognize possibility as a fundamental part of perception. As we redefine "knowing" as a moment to moment process of experiencing the culmination of possibility, we rather let go while holding on. We share reality, as such appears to be so, and in this way we are never lost. We can loosen our grip on the idea of fact or truth, centralize such to our own experience, and yet still stay interconnected to all else. This is a wonderful gift that can be used to define singularity, or even the akasha if so chooses. We can bend, yet never break, this blessing of One world.

One of my favorite ways comprehending possibility becomes radically beneficial is in the art of relation as I often speak of. When we don't define a person, thing, or situation as static according to what subconsciously we believe we welcome so much vibrant energy into our Being. This is really the only way relation is possible, for if we know what a person is then we have reduced them to this proverbial chair. We actually contain them within our beliefs, and in doing so we energetically limit their own ability to be dynamic.

Everything is in a state of change. I can know a pencil writes on paper, that it came from a tree and other components, I can define it through what such appears to be for sure. Yet when I look deeper into the pencil there is so much unknown, truly it is enveloped in infinite possibility while the existence of such to me is but a sliver, a moment of context. How many people contributed to the creation of this simple thing? What will it draw, write, or how could it be used in some random situation as the solution to what could be a great trouble?

Oh, the world illuminates when we let go of knowing. When we trust in what is as full of potential, ready for the glory and purpose of our Being to unfold, we open the door for great understanding to be had. We find the underlaying truth of all manifest within our experience, that we do not truly "know" anything.

The mind is a magnificently divine machine. The space we open up to when possibility is welcomed actually frees up the energy the mind can access. This is how synchronicity can be maintained, how manifestation can become immediate. For me this is the utilization of zero-point energy, that when we do not control the mind through limiting beliefs we empower such instead. All that is required is a consideration of possibility, to harness the idea that all is in a state of change, to let go of our need to control the external through definition.

"The more I know, the more I know nothing". The nothing is this possibility and the closer our relationship with such becomes the more Nature reveals the truth. As we open more and more space for the dynamic to fill our lives the more we find an unshakable trust. We grow closer to everything in our life by freeing it from our subconscious control.

Oh possibility, thank you for being.

Bridging health to wellness

Today a notion comes to mind that feels so relevant for so many in my life. As a reminder for my own awareness, the idea of healing and wellness being very different seems quite important. Of course, as I naturally declare, the truth of such is either found within or not had at all. My intention is that the observations shared with me by God could be related to One's own existence and henceforth be the basis for truth to be discovered. Certainly any words I would say are but a reflection of the readers own internal process, as above, so below, as we find inside, we see outside.

There is a subtle notion within the word and concept of "healing", when abstracted from subconscious process and brought into the light of awareness we begin to dispel such. When we heal we automatically create a point of which something is wrong, not working, broken, or needs to be changed. Now of course practically speaking this is certainly valid, and even if we are to shift how we look at such there still may be a need to find external solutions. Yet to first recognize the meaning of the condition as relative to our growth and development as an individual is to take the first step of transcending the cyclic nature of healing and enter into a state of wellness.

Where wellness comes in is that the difficulty or imbalance is first a marker for our focus of attention or our patterning of beliefs. We go from the inside out, rather than vice versa. When we encounter such as a manifestation externally, in our state of Being or the conditions of our life in general, we either understand such as our inner process manifest, or don't. At this point of recognition we are only touching the surface, as this is just the first layer of awareness into the process of coming into wellness.

So, first we bridge the gap between our world of experience being separate from the internal, then what? Here we are inside our bodies, feeling and thinking each moment, while under some sort of discomfort of our body or situation. What is the next level of awareness to consider?

Now there is another disclaimer, and I recognize that of all truth of experience I could be inspired to share this is perhaps the keystone of all else. If we are to notice that our process of Self discovery, self unfoldment, the revealing of how our purpose manifests into life, then there has to be something behind all of It. For me this comes as the great "I AM", followed immediately by "Nature IS" or "God IS", if you prefer.

I AM, therefore God, Nature, or the cosmic forces of Life have called me into Being. I must be a part of a Divine process, a Divine expression, of which how could there be fault? If there is no mistakes in a creation of such magnitude, just as the sun and stars spiral about as our planet does while maintaining the capacity to allow life to be, then how could any instance of my life be anything other than perfect?

So the signpost has been realized and a deep truth has been considered....all of the sudden our imbalance has become a catalyst for deep fundamental change to rise from within. We discover gratitude for the lesson, for a reminder no matter how intense or subtle. Rather than Being in a process of healing, where we subconsciously through definition put our Being in a state of imperfection, we are unfolding as a flower. A bud is not wrong because it has yet to open, nor is anything wrong in our lives when we see such as a step towards the potential God offers us.

Wellness in this way permeates all levels of our Being, from the spirit, or point of awareness known as "I", to the most superficial of aspects in our day to day existence. Truly the there becomes no superficial, just like a cold or flu is not just some bug we caught for no reason other than lack of washing our hands, the distant qualities that allow our lives to be become connected to our Being. We are not just talking semantics, nor are we referring to a simple change of definition, what we are considering is a completely different way to observe Being with the consideration of wellness as a starting point.

Now unto the transition from healing to wellness, for we must give the conditions that opened welcomed these ideas rightful attention. There is so so much to discover about the deeper workings of energy, of our relationship between body, mind, spirit, and all else that surrounds our point of awareness. We have found our starting point, and when we are ready, the first step must be taken.

Be sure to make it a small step, not to leap so far that we forget to give the external attention. Beliefs have a way of needing time for entropy to occur, for the external to reflect what we have learned. We may need to continue medications or practices that hold a state of balance for the inner energy to be held in awareness. I would not claim to give anyone medical advice, but rather suggest that a change of perspective, an expanded awareness, and focused attention could lessen the severity of the experience. The deep trust and connection to the Source of all life is a powerful tool that can rise into the practical quickly, yet what is provided outside our Being is also a contribution from Nature. Let no thing go unnoticed or made less important as we grow into our highest vibrational way of living.

To hold to my intention of keeping blogs short and sweet as I can I will wrap it up now. Words as a seed, if the soil of One's life has been prepared then all we need to do is choose to cultivate and Love the fleck of energy for it to grow into magnificence. Be well, be great, give the world permission to discover as you have the possibility for true prosperity, peace, and fulfillment to blossom into Being.

Thank you for reading, Blessed Be,

Nathan

Interpreting the External

Of what does our experience provide? Does the content become a superficial listing of requests, requirements, and desires, or do we find a deeper meaning of each moment? The real question is, do we relate or do we identify with that which life provides us with?

To truly define these two ways of observing and absorbing information we each must consider our own perspective. Sharing the definitions that I have come to through meditative contemplation can give a good platform for One's own deduction, yet to truly become part of an integral foundation the truth must come from within. For this has been shown to me as how the mind operates anyways, yet if we do not make the coagulation of experience into belief conscious then we perpetuate a dependence on the subconscious to do so for us. The subconscious, as DNA and the field of energy that permeates all life called the "Akashic Record", is forever watching, eternally maintaining a point of reference as to what awareness is encountering.

I say eternally as in this moment there feels to be no beginning nor end to this spectrum of information. The further I go into my past the more I find fragmented images, feelings, and content that is my life and yet something else. There is this sense of a endless process, where even at inception of creation there is no definable point where no thing comes before. Immediately my sense of the future appears as the same and there is no delusion about life or death, there is simply no way of actually finding a beginning or end to the awareness of such.

Coming back into this moment my awareness expands into my surroundings. The crowing of birds, the sound of cars hovering past, a faint scent of smoke, my body vibrating with the energy of my daily energy practice. There also seems to be no real border as to where I begin and end, my awareness seems to spill forth from sensation into possibility. All of life is certainly infinite, even in it's most transient and fleeting state.

This expansive perception in all known directions is a quality brought about by devotion to the practice of relation. Perhaps the process has been integrated into my existence by forces outside my own will, by a greater destiny of which I discover only as such unfolds. All I truly know is that when possibility is considered, and I let go of my definitions and the associations what a situation, person, or things means to me, the world seems to open up. Everything becomes luminous with potential, the mystery of Being fills me with a subtle excitement, and a peace is brought forth that seems boundless.

The act of relation was something that over a period of time I just began doing. My interest in how other people saw the world drew me into considering the possibilities, recognizing that perhaps I do not truly "know" that which is outside my own Being. Making a study of life appears as an inevitable quality of who I am and only through this study has it been revealed why. For now, let's save the why's for later.

When introduced to the works of Eckhart Tolle and "The Power of Now" the idea of relation struck me as vastly important. I sought the definition in a variety of places, as the one suggested by the cd's a friend gave me of his didn't feel complete at the time. Eventually I came to the theory of relativity, consideration of the word "relationship", more and more the realization of exactly how potent this action and quality can be grew.

Before going any deeper let me share the definition I have found through all of this introspection. The first step to relation is to accept that all is possibility when it comes to the external content. We can never truly know a thing, we can only experience it through our own perception, or we can consider that within this vast unknowing are certain potentials. The mind seems to have an innate ability from this perspective to abstract these potentials, and thus we can begin to see through the eyes of another.

To relate is to accept that all is possibility and then to consider the point of view of that which we are relating to. This cannot be done without some level of compassion, for how can we truly see from a point outside our own Being while holding onto our judgements of such? We have to let go completely in order to fully grasp the feeling of which the external presents. The mind naturally picks an array of the highest potentials, builds a deeper sense of compassion, and then checks all of our own experience for any sort of reason that is not immediately apparent.

In relation we avoid that which is identification, we use a set of circumstances beyond our own direct experience. Now of course to consider possibility we are tapping into the higher extent of what we have been subject to in our life. Not only can we abstract the potential perspective from the content of all we have observed wether conscious or not, but we can also use the reference of DNA, all the information of all time as to what DNA has directly witnessed.

So when we identify we have this unchanging resolve as to what is true, what is right or wrong. We fit the external into our view and therefore contain it within a finite set of definitions, we lose possibility, we lose the natural sense of compassion. This is the separation that we are now resolving, certainly why the topic seems important enough to delve into here and now.

Relation is to me exactly what Nature has been working towards creating, and in the human mind is where this quality and ability has arisen. We are in this way Nature's greatest gift to It's Self. In the original design is of course this seed of potential, yet truly we transcend such through the proper application of relation. We can see an obstacle as opportunity, also we can derive truth from another's experience and skip any real need to find it out for ourselves. We can abstract truth from possibility, and in this way we can make consistent progress without having for one moment create new lessons associated with the realization of how a quality can be resolved.

The real question this inspires within is are we really using this ability? Looking all around the potential is outstanding, nearly overwhelming if I really let it all in. What could we discover if we started looking through the eyes of our challenges? Perhaps Nature would reveal the secrets of our collective purpose, or in other words, perhaps the We that IS Nature would transcend our original design and create a new program.

This seems to be the goal of Nature, to expand and discover the Self, to create expressions of Love, and to resole to the highest quality, the highest vibrational state of existence. If we are to accept each other, to accept and Love the situation we are in for the potential that lays just slightly below the surface, relation is the key ingredient. We find the truth of relativity, that all is connected, all is One, and therefore there is a chance to achieve harmony on all levels.

My prayer for today is that we may each find the power and truth of relation in the most gentle yet thorough way. That we may see a clear path to living as a pure reflection of Love. That through looking within to see the external world in a new way we can each become an agent of Nature, unified, compassionate, and determined to live as an example of our highest way of interpreting the external.

Blessed Be,

Nathan

Peculiar Progress

Every day is a new adventure and today I am absolutely in awe.

Two happenings today strike me as unique, the first not so easy to describe beyond the experience, the second with more understanding and ability to express.

First is an experience that is very new to me as of this day.

After reading and replying to a comment about time-travel in a group on facebook I went and sat down away from the computer. Closing my eyes I started to have full visions of other places, other times, from other eyes. There was a detachment to the source of what was seen through inner eye, yet I could clearly look around and see most all of the detail within my perception. Even smells and the feeling of the situation.

This is not the first time I have been on a brief journey within, this time there were no catalysts of my own will, there were no thoughts or efforts. Truly I felt subjected to what came over me.

The vision first came as being on a boat, an old sailboat in a harbor surrounded by other massive ships. I could smell the wood, the salt in the air, and feel the heavy garments on the body the vision came from. I looked around soaking up the details, the bits of goods on the deck, the shape of the boat and the blue of the sky. Then without notice the vision shifted.

I was leaping from a tree branch high in some mysterious canopy. Landing on another branch I reached out and grabbed a fig, noticing I was looking from the eyes of a monkey, seeing other monkeys around me curiously picking away at their own point of interest. It wasn't startling, it felt normal to be drifting through space in my mind...yet quietly a voice was bursting inside...what is this?

Then in a blink I was dashing through the water, breaking through waves with the ocean swirling around me. There was the sounds of the current and other dolphins around me as I swam. This was a quick moment and before I knew it I was back on the boat in a setting already familiar.

Lastly my vision came into a body much like my own, only lighter. In a field of green there were crystal pyramids all about and faces of those around me were those of people in my life today. We were angels in a heavenly space that felt like Earth, a vision I also once had in a dream for sure.

Where did I go? Such a vivid journey through different realms of Being while still fully aware of my body, of where I truly sat. Some sort of miracle happened, and yet with so many miracles and so much wonder happening there is only a slight amount of impression as to everything else that fills my life. The possibilities are limitless, so I leave them up to the reader to consider. I could narrow it down, analyze the vision, as I have become so accustomed to doing, but this just seems so irrelevant. Instead my choice is just to appreciate the wonders of life, stay grounded, and keep a strong focus on living through intention. We shall certainly see what this experience develops into, I have a good feeling something spectacular is unfolding.

Speaking of spectacular unfoldments, I move onto the second realm of thought and observation that is new and special to me. Over the last week it has been building, and as all of Nature, the culmination into expression is one of the most wonder points for such to reach.

There is a constant stream of eventfulness that reflects a synchronistic journey that all are sharing together. There are even tendrils of awareness that reach out into the world well beyond my daily immediate interactions. By this I mean that I can feel the Love spilling forth from the circle of individuals whom are directly in my life to all those who contribute in their many ways.

More and more each day are conversations arising about how we can share intentions of prosperity and abundance for each other, how our connection is deepening and rising into a very practical yet spiritual level. A sort of intuitive network is being created where we share energy in order to assist in our individual manifestations of wellness, balance, and unity. We no longer need to be separate in our process of shaping the world, we can join together and match the speed of ascension with little difficulty.

By intuitive I mean that it is not so much what we try to do, that we don't actually have to do much of anything. All we do is recognize that we are part of a process and that through acknowledgement alone we align our own Being with such. Just a moment of consideration and a huge leap is taken towards our individual and collective potential.

There are many agreements we can bring to the forefront of awareness. Plenty of details as to the highest vibrational way to collaborate our energies, but in general the matrix seems to be preexisting. We as Nature have created a foundation for which the greater or comprehension and acceptance the more we draw energy and capacity from such.

The more I write the more the feeling that there is not so much needed to be said grows. Perhaps a little more experience with the occurrence is required to really have a full expression of such. For now I will just post this and send out into the virtual realm a drop of the idea.

Truly it is already out there, I was reminded by the book "The Twelfth Insight" by James Redfield, and thus my attention to such was enhanced and given momentum. We find exactly the right information at just the right time, wether it reminds of us a previous thought or wether it is an entirely new idea. Even if it takes years to hear about this trend in tribal intention setting to reach larger groups or regions of the world outside of my immediate experience the truth that it is real and can be so powerful is very apparent.

Today I am grateful to recognize the coming together of all things in my life...the world is ready for all those ideas and inspirations we at one point saw as "before our time". Not only is the world ready but the means to make such happens is right there in front of us, through making the connection with the other people in our lives and deciding to create together a new way of Being. I hope that we can share this growing excitement, find the links that bring us together and bring about this next stage of conscious development one connection at a time.

Blessed Be,

Nathan

starting point

All things culminate into an expression, into a reflection of experience no matter how subtle or blatant such appears. For me I have many times sat down with the intention of expressing a mountain of feeling, of observation and realization. Each time I come to a certain precipice, that one cannot express the mountain of One's existence, I can only follow intuition and write what feels right.

Today is one of those impressive days of which nothing really happened other than a slight shift within. The space for expression opened up, and so in respect and honor of the Divine all I can do is let go and let the words spill forth. No longer do I attempt to express a totality of which such can only be fathomed through the direct communion with such. Today I write very simply a story of this journey so far and there is no point further that can make this story incomplete, for I feel completion.

My life is defined by a trust, an acceptance that there is nothing that can be lost, nothing that can be taken from me. So long had this feeling hung on the verge of fulfillment, certainly many times passed that I was sure such would remain, only to be lost. Suffering took me over, the fear of lack, of loss, the fear of death or discomfort, and the feeling of trust was lost.

The sustaining of this feeling of trust has been deeply integrated into all I do, into each moment of Being. Even now, feeling a lull in energy as my actions hold me tight to the ground, there is an undeniable Absolution that all is in perfect harmony. What a harsh truth to behold. That no matter how bizarre or perverted the world external may seem that such is as a perfect machine of creation, that no flaw could possibly exist when considered from a omnicentric perspective.

This is the most important part of this story, perhaps, that to adapt a perspective outside of my own Being has been imperative to the natural sustaining of trust in existence. As I have recently read we each go through a variety of positions as to how our perception operates. The first is that of the ego, that all exists merely for the satisfaction or completion of the individual. This expands at some point into that of a tribe, a group of which we belong to, referred to as ethnocentric. Finally we reach the worldcentric position, which I have taken a step further to call omnicentric. At this stage the individual interacts with the world around in a way that considers all life connected, inseparable, that all the content of Being is integral to the rest.

The question that arises with this as the apex of all that is to follow is wether or not such is relative to the reader. In most cases we can find that our awareness and intention need only expand so far. That perhaps there is a lack of relevance in the individual's life for that which is beyond the immediate conditions and considerations of day to day life. As I have found what we must recognize is that whatever position we may have, whatever the expanse of our awareness and interactions proceed, that exactly as we are is exactly as we are best to be.

For so long I fought the direction of my attention, the desire to heal, Love, and share wisdom. As if plagued by a willingness to dissolve into everything else as a catalyst for the transformation of others this current of energy blinded me for so long. In this moment I recognize exactly how distracting and disempowering such can be without first starting at the heart, that of my own body, my own life.

When seeking to reach out and help others without regards to our own Being the foundation for which we stand has serious pitfalls and dangerous terrain. Repeatedly this lesson would be manifested until the realization penetrated deep through the layers of subconsciousness. Until I could abandon my attachment to helping the world, until I could forgo the demands of my family and tribe, until all I was concerned with was the balance and peace of my own Being, endlessly would the content of life direct me towards such.

All of Nature expands and contracts. Each breath, the tides, the way knowing forms and than resolves into mystery, everywhere we can see this pulsation. The river of life has many streams, branching endlessly through the forrest of creation. We expand into the countless things that in contraction we can have an idea, a situation, a quality arise within experience.

I have watched the content of my life multiply into potentials and then collapse into an event, an idea, or a feeling. A very peculiar way to move forward, one that removes the grasping of expectations and has helped developed a strong aptitude for acceptance. This comes to me now as an effortless quality of observing the business of all those around me carry on. Always seeing the connection, always feeling a part of, and yet slightly distant, as if the world was waiting for me.

There is much more happening here rather than just an expression of perspective and experience. There is an inner resolution occurring, and I hope that we can find this resolve being fortified through this work. I see no other way for inner change to occur than to release the accumulated energy of this life journey into word.

For a long time I searched externally, from the age of eighteen until twenty-eight. Set on a course of discovery of Self, the first obvious place for me to begin was in the content that formed the situation of my Being. The feeling is tangible when I recall the way my mind sought beyond the inner space. Many events come back to mind, many paths of which I diligently tread in search of happiness and success.

As a child the catalyst for this process, which brought me to a turning point before growing out of my teen years, was a rather difficult situation. The trials of my youth are now made relatively small compared to the devastating degree to which these lessons could have been brought forth. To be put on a path that would lead within the conditions were first to be dissatisfactory. It was suffering that pushed me into the search for truth, as I knew such then "the search for something pure."

Reading over bits of writing from those times before the inner realm was radically altered there is a great deal of that which I now understand as truth. The interconnectedness of things, people, the union with God or the Divine, truly all the information was already there. There had to be a program to bring such into Being, something had to bring about these ideas into a reality beyond just concept. For without an experience to solidify beliefs into truth I would always question.

Falling into deep torrents of misery at times the conflict between what I believed and what was real tore me to shreds. The impression that the superficial was of most importance really sent me for a spiral of detachment. Money could not be more valuable then friends, nor could a certificate or grade. The connection I felt was most important, but there was much to be learned.

This clash brought on a period of self-destructive behavior. In the way I use the word now I was projecting outwards a feeling of despair, a lack of value to my own Being and situation in life. What it felt like at the time was a crushing weight on my heart, an unbearable reality that did not fit with the ideas that riddled my thoughts.

There were many times I would be told how selfish I was, that I cared for nothing but myself. From this seed came a gratitude and devotion for all else in my life, yet what it started as was a maddening contradiction to what I felt was true. When in the vortex of suffering, due to something as simple as the wrong choice of words, I would pray to take on the pain of the world. This was my true Self coming through, this care for all of life that we each have naturally embedded in our psyche. At the time it simply devoured my constitution, and I had a great difficulty getting past the feeling and to focus on the content of my life as I create such.

Truly, to choose what we create and to pave that path which best reflects how we wish to create, is a very new program for me. The idea of free will has long long escaped me due to the way of which all seems inevitable. How Nature's perfect mechanism seems to work according to It's own will and not that of others. Quite some time passed before the core of this idea would be revealed. I found at this central axis the dimension of the subconscious, that we all have a choice such is just hidden beneath the workings of which first we must recognize. If we are to live with intention and to activate our true free will, to align who we are with what we create, then first there must be an awareness of the root for our inability. This has been my experience to say the least.

The exact situations are nearly irrelevant. The world has some pretty specific ways of leading us to our lessons, to the math of Being, why I have been allowed to access such is beyond me. Foremost of these workings is the idea that such is available to everyone, and in pure contradiction to experience, that we need not suffer to realize and align this inner truth with what we create.

To recall on the specific events brings a feeling of apathy, there is no desire to express beyond how such was met as progress or development. Perhaps the misinterpretation of the content of my childhood is so easy to adhere to. That as many of us share a similar story there might be an association to the beliefs latent or active that lives within the reader. Still, if relation is to occur there must be content.

I was born on a island off the east coast of America, well actually we were in transition to moving to this home of my heritage when I was born en route. Living on an island and identifying myself as an "Islander" was important in my days of growing, as I desired to be the same as everyone else in my school and social circle.

The situation became more complex as oth Father and Mother were consequentially removed from my immediate experience. Wether by choice or action the end result was the same, a need to form my own idea of what these roles in life truly meant. I grew up with an Aunt and UNcle, of whom I am so grateful for what they contributed to my learning experience.

What was difficult was the beliefs formed by separation at an early age. The usual story of blame, of self-deprivation due to a feeling of worthlessness. To be punished was to receive what was rightfully earned, the bottom of the proverbial bucket. To start at the lowest possible position in life was what I believed was my fate. In this moment the idea appears as a perfect point to grow from. The situation was set for radical progress to come about.

Inside I was alone, entirely separate and abstract from every person and thing of my life. Practically speaking the brotherhood of three cousins and the endless compassion of my sister always stood to represent that I was part of a family. This idea that those outside of me did care for me escaped me. In order to discover a sense of unity with all beings this had to pass by unnoticed. The constant support and care of my siblings were as a breeze through a tunnel, or a slow drop of water upon the floor of a vast cave. A long time passed until the wealth of accumulation was recognized as that which shaped my position within a larger family. This would come shortly after a great plunge into a world of separation would send me rocketing back into a new undiscovered space of existence.

For most of my young days I sought desperately to conform, to fit in. The subconscious conditioning of my life situation would be an unseen enemy. No matter what I wads determined to align who I was with what I created. To prove to those all around me that I was more than that which they labeled me to be. At the same time an unbearable force pushed me back into submission, cursed, this is what I knew myself to be.

At sports I fell short, in music my rhythm escaped me, my words were elegant and my talents in drawing immaculate, yet without confidence such was useless. The best I could produce would be reflected to me as a need to be fulfilled, a source of my own lack. The greater an expression the more fiercely was my lack put upon me. The word "should" echoes, from here we begin to see the deepest disfunction of which this writing is truly ane exploration of.

So much paper was scribed with the endless stream of inspiration. First the content of my life was reflected, then as things became more clear in my later years, my drawings took on the shape of a deeper context. This is actually a really good way to see how the development of the psyche happened for me. The subconscious and then conscious expressions of experience through symbol, characters, a different world on each page.

Quite torturous in those days of my teens and before. A glimpse of potential that appeared impossible to realize or live. The response was always the same, and as I said before the word "should" was always hanging over me as a dark cloud. I would go as far as to say this potential is still unfolding, and I am unsure to what such is truly leading towards. Eventually acceptance would arise in place of this weight I called into my life. Not a profound acceptance where inspiration was met with an equal expression, but at first and mostly to this day, this acceptance is admission to be grateful for what is, rather than to stew over the potentials of such.

When first this feeling began to rise into awareness I found bliss. This corresponded to what was really an escape through substances. A feeble attempt to fix that which was so impressed upon me as broken.Before my eighteenth year the search would begin through the portal of psychedelics, and this would be the eventual catalyst for a great divide within to be bridged.

This was not that enjoyable of an experience, in fact the subconscious rip of separation would be torn in two. My mind was to collapse inwards, at the height of my self-destructive period, at the age of seventeen, a complete detachment was called for. After coming back into a rather shaky reality I entered a rehabilitation program and began to see the truths of which action and intention were brought into being.

There would be some more time and a little more exploration in the world of medicines, as I have come to understand such now, but it would only take nine months of returning to this space that the world would again collapse. This time it was not a loss of perspective or position in reality, but to lose a connection shared with a woman. For a long time this would be my only true regret, the one broken part of my life of which there was no repair.

For this my response was actually quite progressive, I decided that the only way to show my gratitude, the only way to make amends, was to live as an example of the compassionate and devoted spirit I had found within. This was not a simple task, and would become an obsession that would lead me through seven years of study into the world around me. The great Way brought me out into the world in a way never before comprehended. I would find the truth that was in the space outside of my Being, and there would be no stopping until my mind was ready to look within.