I Am that I Am.

My name is Nathan Jon Bennett.

My Father is Jonathan, my Mother Marilyn, my Sister Jade…

I Am a member of a human family, as well as that of a cosmic family…

A part of a tribe of creative individuals…

Those who channel what is beyond experience, dreaming onto pages, speaking the tongues heard on the lips of the trees.

I Am Nature, both as Source and as Subject, an expression of Love, a unique perspective of existence. I exist in a state of Peace and trust within the synchronistic flow for which the ascent of consciousness might be fulfilled.

I Am a channel born of a human body that I may discover the light of Being and the Nature of Self. I manifest the highest vibration potentials to unfold, and serve as a catalyst for the awakening of consciousness into a dynamic state. For the apprehension of will and the direct reprogramming of our collective shared space I live to be of service to Nature in whatever way such calls for me.

I Am a Son, a Brother, an Uncle, a Cousin, a Grandson, and a friend. I Am a Bennett, a Drake, and a Grace. A writer of countless unfinished works, a poet of unspoken words, a mirror for which only self evident truth can define.

I lead no one while showing those who may seek the way….I follow no one while curiously exploring the realm of possibility.

I Am the Eagle, the Owl, the Dragon, the Elephant, the Scarab, the Lion, and the Cat. I am of the Earth, a child of this world descended from the stars.

I am a Grand Alchemist of Spirit, a magician of possibility, and an agent of the Divine, I am Nature, I am Love.

I have seen the densities of consciousness, the conformity into the evolutionary state, and I have tasted the transcendence of such….the vast mystery that swirls behind a lovers eyes. I have heard Shakti whisper and felt her wrath, I have relentlessly found the willingness to honor her, to be the foundation of which she may dance upon.

I Am that I Am…as I know of my existence, as a singular Entity of consciousness, a fragment of an endless spectrum of light brought into Being through the curiosity of what I am….what I do is a result of how I see, how I see is a result of both logical and emotional contemplation and relation. Through process of Self Evident Truth I have come to be in union with the body of God, empowered to bring about the will of the great justice, the resolution of this play of life into a cooperative and intentional process.

I Am One of Many, and of Many the One has no end….and I will continue to discover, to hold awareness, to follow intuition, and to do so as a means of service, an expression of the gratitude life inspires.

Thanks God for this opportunity, for this journey, Thanks for this body, the friends, the smells and tastes of this world. Thanks for trust, for confidence and clarity, thanks for guiding me to discover my purpose, for reminding me who I am. Thank you for this beautiful present of presence, this magnificent gift of Being.

Refabrication

Upon this web of energy life continues to show It's depths to me. Did I ask for this? Do I claim to be intelligent, knowing, that I have figured anything out? No, I do not. My Being is but a fleck of dust, a droplet of water, upon the breeze or as a glimmer on the crest of a great wave. Of course, we are each as deep as the ocean and as passing as the wind across the meadows.

Contemplation is no longer an active process and seldom do I find my mind entangled in the unraveling of what I observe...and yet, the world draws me into It. The infinite calls for me, the eternal ocean laps at my feet, holding loving arms open that I may dive in.

This last week has been absolutely riddled with epiphany, rapture, and a resounding peace. Presence has taken on a new fundamental quality of which experience has both revealed and instilled. A return to a state of Being that reminds me of my studies on evolution, of the discovery of the purpose of fear. This objective realm, sprouted upon the masculine, embraces me as a Goddess with countless arms of tender touch, the softest most delicate lips upon my brow, and a warmth that illuminates my body with bliss.

The matrix of light, whose vibration grows nearly still when touched by our consciousness, begins again to accelerate.

Among the concepts offered in the form of radical realization has been an array of which subconscious patterns have risen into the conscious. I cannot express how deeply engrained into the fabric of the original design of Nature these energetic programs are. Words do no justice to that which has been permeated by thousands of years of necessity, by the infallible force of evolution. Yet this process is quite comprehensible, as the purpose of such brings a light that validates all which has been before either in experience or in the consideration of possibility.

For this I have gratitude of which words also fail to express in this moment.

On a surface level we each find ourselves transcending from the various depths of fear. As the Being discovers the root of which trust becomes readily available the ego begins to transform into something quite new and splendid. The fear that has forced us into the objective begins to resolve and with each stage or depth of which the veils of the subconscious are lifted, trust becomes further and further fortified.

I had absolutely no idea this was possible to the range of which I now can access.

Okay, now onto the specifics, for in this blog I offer the logical consideration of what is a sensational experience, and it is the feeling to which I would now direct One's attention towards. Those feelings that are within unpleasant have a great more to them as responses to experience, for there is a current of belief which leads to their transmission.

What could be considered as a negative emotion, even when rationalized as important and accepted as the resolution of which the content of life is let go or allowed to be, is a sign post for an inner working. Feeling is naturally very important and in no way would I suggest to look away or to let go of that which has not been immersed in the light of consciousness. Alas, there is much more than what we even find in our deepest contemplations, for as all things, we are always of a greater expanse of truth and we are always furthering our voyage into such.

In my minds eye I see this like a wave, a great potential for the awakening of endless souls into Being. When those difficult emotions become the means for insight into the very workings of our collective consciousness we have found the key to the gates of heaven, of which the light spills forth into the place of our Being, and the two become one.

If we are sad or hurt, of course this is okay, this is wonderful, for we can find peace with what is through acknowledging and accepting the content of life. This is a level that is beneath the surface, of which we normally find unconscious reactivity. At first we see that our hurt becomes an expression, we find our own path to refining this expression and aligning such with the intention to find Love and Peace through such.

When we at last begin to restructure how we interact with the world we go deeper into the realm of which these emotions rise. After we have achieved an ability to let go, to see the good, and began our journey down the avenue of trust, the next phase is quite wonderful. We harness the power of this energy, and where before there would be an expression reflective of the discomfort there now arises an expression of forgiveness, willingness, and even gratitude.

Deeper we go, for the hurt still arises, the frustration, the mental reactivity, even when such is followed by a conscious response we are still only slightly under the surface. This week, after years of living in a way motivated towards the alignment of intention and expression, finally the shell has broken, and the source of these blips where peace falters, has come into awareness.

Even when apprehended a means to letting go, accepting, and even seeing the good in that which does not immediately feel good, there still remained a subconscious program for which these feelings would arise from. There is a fabric of which evolution has been woven, a blanket of beliefs which are imperceptible from within the warmth and comfort of Its being.

As we have discussed before, to be of something, to be within a way of seeing, is to be entirely unaware of that which we are of, for such is all we know. How have I telescoped beyond this pervasive and permeated quality? I surely do not know, yet I am so grateful for such in this moment of illumination.

I cannot say there is a path to discovering what lay beyond this sheath of which from within we blossom. There is no real knowing of any of this. Yet I cannot look away from that which the light has been shed upon, it fills my awareness and seems to coat the external world as a film ever so subtle.

We hurt for many reasons, just as this hurt becomes suffering for us each at some point. At the root of all unpleasant emotion appears to be a principle of which we believe, ever so subconsciously, that such is required of life. The only example I have of where observation of detachment from this pattern is within my own Being....yet I trust in the possibility that such is available to everyone when the time is right. The perpetuation of discontent seems to be based off of definitions of what is right or wrong, that life is impermanent, and at times even that we have no choice in these matters.

Although I feel compassion, and pray for the most gentle and direct path for each to reach their own unique revelations, I do not wish away the suffering of another. I would not choose to deprive another of the blessing of which suffering or pain may serve as a signpost to discover. For so long I have questioned emotion, why do you rest within, why do you become irritated and fill my awareness without my own choice? But I did choose, we all choose, as this is the path to discovery, the path of growth into being a conscious creator of our own unique universe.

We must find the source of all things, we must transcend these inherent programs of Nature, this is our destiny. We have no choice in the matter of where we become Nature awakened, for life is utterly full of the catalysts for exactly this.

Perhaps I have not described so well this recent expanse of awareness....perhaps such is before words, before expression, and so I but dance on the surface of an ocean of unfathomable depth. We can but sing our song, wether such is heard or not, and in our every action is a broadcast of how we see. Effortlessly our beliefs are incorporated into the world, echoing out into each thing we touch, each person we see.

I hope that within what may be a feeble attempt at expressing such a profound quality of awareness there has been much inspiration. Perhaps a seed has been planted, one of which the rich soil of the readers mind has manifested for their own Being.

Into the ether I send these words. An offering of gratitude to the Great Divine that has brought me into It's loving arms. Today the fear that has quietly lived beneath the surface, the patterns of which discontent must arise again and again, is caressed by the waves of my consciousness. Surely this tide can change the face of a stone, slowly, patiently, seemingly without effort. For it is through the patient and gentle stroking of water to stone that it's hardened surface can become smooth just as it is the subtle energies of each moment that the foundations of perception are made new.

Blessed Be,

Nathan

Return to Grace

In browsing about the past several years of fragmented posting among several blogs attached to this one you may find a story of what I have called a fall from Grace. A period where what studies my life had carried about reached an apex in a point of reference of which there was no separation between I and all else. From a rapturous state which ebbed and flowed over the course of a year or so I found my identity dissolved into the external world. This was quite the intense duration, lasting 4 months in and 4 months out.

After returning to the collective reality I often found my thoughts driving me towards a return to this state, yet within conscious and practical control. I missed the vision, the utter compassion, the synchronicity and connection of all things. At the same time there was a passive acceptance that I was not prepared for a return. Nearly three years have passed now.

What an incredible experience this has been. Where peace gradually reconstituted action and the force of will, becoming more of a conscious process then just a sort of submissiveness. Subservient to the dictation of an expansion and solidification of identity and the unique expression of Nature that is I, where I have gone in mind and of body, strikes me with awe in this moment. Often I say that I could not have consciously chosen the path to manifest by any means better than such has been laid at my feet.

Yet this process has not been free of will, rather the ability to apprehend and apply choice that reflects my intentions has slowly returned. An alignment of who I am with what I see and what I do has been near fully restored. At the same time a new found trust, depth of awareness, and fundamental structure has been built, naturally, through the Grace of a God both Omnipresent and infallible.

This last week has been riddled with radical shifts of consciousness. The subconscious layers of conditions drop one by one as the events of each day highlight such. Each day the people and situations of my life bring about exactly the right revelation or release at precisely the right time. Quickly following as an application or expression is the quality that has been remembered, apprehended, or discovered for the first time within my awareness.

As we ascend, as the density of our perception lessens and our awareness fills with observance of new depths of which the subconscious has been conditioned or programmed by the energetic patterns of our shared reality. The original design of Nature, as such is relative to my individual experience, resolves into a conscious, or more specifically Tantric, quality of moment to moment existence. All routes are retraced, each condition prior to Ones current state is reevaluated and either resolved further or released.

The release is dependent on wether or not the quality serves a purpose of illumination, the disillusionment of what was truly but a catalyst. The substance of which the flame is ignited becomes part of the new product and no longer resembles the root of it's own source. The truth has been assimilated as part of the shape or nature of the consciousness such serves.

Some of the more radical revelations, from which Grace seems to flow, are programs of which the portion of self that extends beyond immediate experience are still processing. Like ripples from a big splash, an entropy occurs, where one light enables countless flames to be lit. This does not mean that I is central to all else beyond my individual point of reference, for such is always catalyzed by a seemingly external or independent function. For the sake of Absolution, Self-evident Truth, this is exactly how such occurs.

If how we see creates what we do, think, and feel then that which we create reflects our conscious understanding. With each action is written on the cosmos this point of reference, this independent structure, of which the content of life must conform to. Just one ripple amongst an ocean of consciousness, frothing with potential. Through how we see we reprogram Nature to meet our relative beliefs, if not we continue to perpetuate that which serves as the catalyst for such.

It is all strangely quantifiable through Alchemy, Vedic or Qabbalistic traditions, and as has been instill upon my beliefs, is readily available for any who are prepared and willing for the revelation of such.

Okay, so let's talk specifics...before we finish such a bold statement of perspective it is best to provide plenty of doorways for relation, and therefore comprehension, available to those who would manifest such.

....immediately I recognize just how much content leads to the context of such an epiphany...

One of the major revelations which can be put into rather brief terms, is that of intuition and trust. When a veil begins to drop and vision is extending into the principles of the new insight, there is an emotional response. How we feel seems to be projected backwards in time in order to force the process of logical incorporation....this one factor of the mind's function for consciousness is a tangent of which I will not subject the reader to, yet I do wish to imply consideration of such, posing a question of such, may bring about verification for the reader.

My emotional reactivity had to do with traffic here in Bali. Where native drivers seem oblivious at times, most of the time, to what I had come to see as "common sense". A fear based system of which the rules of the road are formulated tends to create persistent judgement as to the actions of others. At times I would even just blurt out loud my dissatisfaction for the lack of observance to these "common" rules of traffic.

As I just said, this is a fear based perspective, I was subconsciously believing that what I know as safe and considerate was a shared understanding. At least, shared between those who adhere to the rules, those who did not were crazy, unconscious, oblivious, arrogant, among other things.

Then it hit me.

Driving along the streets intuitively, with presence and a trust as to the Nature of life in general, results in a lack of adherence to any rule system other than that of intuition alone. If I were to trust that everyone around me is doing what feels right, investing their awareness in what is happening around them, and that life was progressing according to a perfect unfolding of resolution, then there would be no space or purpose for judgement. A person isn't crazy for going so fast, they are spending their own time as what feels right and driving in a way that reflects that.

When I allow them to be fully and avoid applying what I feel or think is right to them...when I do not in my mind or by my mouth or actions tell them "you are wrong" I empower their intuition to best serve everything else. I do not throw a wrench in their proverbial machinery, our energies co-exist cooperatively and our interaction reflects this. The person passes me by at a hundred miles an hour, and I stay to my side of the road to let them pass...no conflict arises.

The accident I had here some time ago reflected an adherence to this so called common sense, it actually got me injured because I assumed I knew what anothers truth was. That they would use a blinker, or that the car I was passing wouldn't be driving so quickly headlong in the middle of the road. So in my contraction of possibility, holding fast to preconditioned beliefs rather than intuition and trust, I met a conflict with my subconscious pattern directly...in the form of colliding with another motor bike.

Everyone turned out okay, it resolved quickly and I walked away thinking, they should have been more aware, they should have used their blinker, I should not have been in a rush....very practical ideas to think...yet filled with judgement, fundamentally in the belief that error or mistake can occur in a process of Nature which is in my heart as Absolution, perfect and without error. If you asked me I would say, "oh it worked out perfectly because now I wear my helmet, they might remember to use their blinker, and time was set just right for synchronicity to unfold." Although there is an air of perfection in the situation there is also in essence a distrust, judgement, and reapplication of a static system of belief.

The opportunity to see that my beliefs had contracted form possibility into an example of the fear that underlay, into what is an original pattern of Nature...where obstacle is required as a means for adaptation and change...rather than one that adheres to trust, allowance of possibility, pure intuition and a dynamic perspective of life.

The revelations of this depth pop up on a daily basis now, resolving into a situation that verifies such and at which point digressing to the next aspect or depth of subconscious where a preconditioned or unconscious pattern of belief rests.

My intention is to live the highest vibration, to live in service of the all, to be a living expression, a living work of art, for which my own Nature creates. I choose to be a part of the matrix of life, I choose to be available for the manifestation of that which will bring forth the revelation and awakening of the inner Nature of others. I stay grounded as long as such is relative to all else around me....we ascend together, or we remain on the ground level resolving that which might compromise the state to which we are returning to.

Thank you Source of all that is, that which is beyond the mind, beyond my experience, and of which all is enabled to be. How gracious and magnificent this process is, how radical God empowers the Nature of the individual to be independent yet connected and unified cosmos of It's own. How absolutely incredible is this return to Grace, this ascent into the fulfillment of Our creative potential, for which I have a resounding gratitude, trust, and willingness to continue discovering manifest.

Blessed Be,

Nathan

Return of Quatzequatel

Today, drawing in my sketchbook, I find a peculiar picture...A Snake with wings, crystal hovering above the head, a pitcher of water wrapped at mid and a dorje held firmly by the tail. The winged snake is surrounding an eye, encased in tin, with an iris of ethereal circuitry....what is to me an obvious symbology, yet only half intended.

Creative Self Expression, experienced as a channeling of sorts, tends to be one of my best references for what exactly is happening energetically both within and externally. Some great adventures and strings of discovery have been initiated through considering a drawing manifesting before me beneath my very own pen. The content is leading, a story about an insight best contemplated lightly, prophetic only in what this moment lends to such.

Creative Self expression, creation by principle, Self as all encompassing, and expression, a reflection of the inner workings of One's Being as a product of what has been observed. The observation is subtle, subconscious, and all pervasive into the matrix of information that appears to surround us. The all pervasive Self is just this, the all of which the mind watches and compiles into an experience relative to One's karmic resolution or discovery of creative potential.

The obvious symbology is within grasp of even the remotely curious researcher. A pitcher to symbolize the coming of the age of Aquarius, a Dorje to signify the masculine contribution, a winged snake as Quatequatel...a mythical figure of whom's importance refers to the traditional beliefs of ancient South American cultures, specifically, the integration of unity consciousness within the physical realm. At least, this is how I have come to understand such.

The symbolism of the picture is not entirely what strikes me, as for me this is a rather direct depiction of popular concepts. What bring me about the inspiration to write on the topic is how Art, when channeled, perfectly reflects the patterns of the subconscious....or perhaps the unconscious, the super-structure of which the fabric of things is painted upon.

Creative Self Expression in the form of visual and musical themes shows what lay just beneath a persons Being, not just the beliefs, but the perspective therein. I can recall growing up and looking at the content of my art, having a rather clear portal into what was going on inside. Of course, when drawing comics, super heroes and villains, ghosts and monsters, in my younger days I was more reflecting directly what interested me. Later on pictures showed what I was working through quite clearly.

It is as if I dream on paper, processing and resolving the energetic patterns of which my perspective of reality is founded. This is possibly why I did not easily recall dreams if even having the slightest idea that a dream had occurred, during my first 28 years on this planet. I was watching my mind repair, restore, and quantify reality right on the paper in front of me.

A giggle hums inside as I recall some works of art...glimpses into the unfoldment of Self-Realization. I could list them off and describe the bits that outline this continuum of observation if I were into such a tedious task...and naturally if such could maintain the interest of a potential reader.

At first the images showed the revulsion against what was being offered as true. A picture of a robot having a wicked gremlin tearing a microchip from the head, a man bound by both straight jacket and thread holding the mouth and eyes shut, a man waist deep in water curiously holding a key as he walks through an open door... visions of a path of refusal to accept, acknowledgement of the forceful way of teaching society portrayed, and a burning desire to be free of the illusion. This freedom has come, and is being explored right now.

When the perspective shifted so did the content. As a foundation of peace and self-evident truth was fortified geometries began to come out in my drawings. Questioning these shapes blew open wide the doors of which the fundamentals of energy dynamics began to nearly with obsession fill my contemplations. I watched as each picture bore more turns, more depth, a furthering of complexity as comprehension broadened.

The time came when patterns were half of what filled my pages, Escher-like tessellation's mixed in with abstract spatterings of curves and splotches of ink. Mandalas of magnanimous variety spilled forth...as if a vein had been tapped of which creative flares of electricity coursed into being with each stroke.

This is what I like to see in Art, not pure symbolism, or chaotic abstraction, but rather a reflection of the unique perspective of divinity as such exists beneath the living expression of the physical. If we see the world as gross, perverted, and wicked, if we harbor pains and discontent for what life has offered us, how we express ourselves will reflect this. As we begin to discover the inner workings of our own mind, creative energies, or Nature in general, so does what we produce as illustrations, music, and poems display.

Now, this is not the limit to which how we see the world comes into Being, our every action holds the same energy. Fear is expressed in countless ways just as trust. Sometimes we are just copying precisely what we see in a new way, reshaping a design originated in experience. How we treat others, the way we spend our money, how we interact with all the things and stuff, the content of our lives, is imprinted with how we understand such.

What would we choose if free from dependance of which our mind resolves the observations of life? Unless there is a comprehension of unity, of the holistic nature of energy then what we create will only show a superficial dimension of ourselves. If we are to create according to the truth implied upon us we shall always just perpetuate the energy of the objective world.

Just a moment of consideration that there is an infinite field of possibility just beyond One's definitions of life can dramatically shift what we create. When the world becomes a place built upon unbreakable compassion, or Love, our sounds will harmonize, the colors to which we paint will inspire the sense of connection felt when expressed.

We can see through the eyes of another through relation, taking possibility as our foundation, or we can search an expression of the creative Being for the symbolism as to how we have discovered such. We can feel through their words, through their curves and palette, we can see our own Self in that which may appear entirely separate, if only at first glance.

Today I am grateful for the ability to observe the workings of the mind and the connection I have been blessed to feel. For each work of art that shows the complex workings of another experience, and for what such inspires me to remember or realize, I choose to be in service of the growth of the world around me.

How could I desire to transcend such a place of unique mystery? A realm of which each breath speaks of the infinite is at hand, and I choose to marvel at what spills forth from this pen, from these keys, and mouth.

We are discovering our creative potential each moment, may we each see in the world around us that which elevates, connects, builds trust and compassion....and may we share equally that which we are so freely given.

Blessed Be,

Nathan

Belief

Last night an inspiration came in the form of relation to a Goddess and her perspective. The idea of how belief rests and moves in the mind came to a sort of apex, where my own observations of energy were put into a new perspective.

Some time ago with the discovery of relation I began a new course of being empathetic, without awareness as it now seems. The art of seeing through the eyes of another, of letting go of definitions and considering the depth of possibility, brings the mind into a whole new network of comprehension. For this the revelation of last night brought a sort of completion, an unfolding of potential I was entirely unaware of being a possibility. This post here is a reflection of my own deliberation of the idea and the solidification into a belief that is energetically free flowing and yet contributes to my perspective.

The idea is that the aura, or energy, of an individual is created by the way we each see, compute, and respond to our experience. That when we relate there is a great deal more happening than just opening up to the possible concepts and feelings involved in the energy. Often there is a sense of mystery when relating, although I wasn't sure where this enigmatic quality of another's energy came from. It seems now that there is a very reasonable meaning to this.

Our minds are very special machines, very complex and incomprehensible, the most magical component of experiential existence for sure. A gift from Nature to It's Self, the ability to separate consciousness into individual points of reference, this is how great the mind is.

This mysterious energy now appears to be generated by the considering of possibility, that when One asks the universe what is normal, what is best or right, there is a shift in the field of energy they are generating. At the same time, a person whose mind has defined and contained their experience into a static structure loses this mystery, if only temporarily. To One who relates to this what they find is like a book, the higher possibilities are easy to find as they result from what we can directly observe as the beliefs instilled by the state of our humanity.

Patterns of energy....beliefs, the ideas that have been impressed upon us by society, a way of unconsciously defining Being through the conduction of other individuals. Perhaps we find this same way of perception through our own definitions as well, that we may form unique concepts and just the same hold these as truth as a static structure of Being.

Judgement, this is what it comes down to, holding beliefs about things in a way that is not malleable. most often this is an unconscious process, which means we gather ideas and concepts from what we are provided as true by experience and without our own awareness turn these into our way of perception.

These unfounded beliefs, those which we do not actually choose to hold as true, must create a degree of conflict in the process of the subconscious mind. Here we could get into a very semantical discussion, and although there is so so much to go into on this topic, I would prefer to stay on the most surface level. That we learn from our experience, from what we are told and what we see as true, without actually bringing the light of consciousness, the power of our own contemplation and feeling, into the idea.

Examples from my own life may describe this best, perhaps even provide a platform for relation from the reader. Through my youth there was a dramatic amount of resistance to what was being impressed upon me as truth. I am unsure why I naturally revolted, why unlike so many others, as such appears, I did not just comply with the concepts provided for me.

The roles of Mother and Father as shown to me by my experience was unacceptable, what I was told and what I saw as being held of importance just didn't make sense. It was unfathomable just how we could hold things so important that were trivial when put into a perspective of existing in unity with sustainability and prosperity as a goal. For this is what we were saying, that we were working towards a better world, that our collective purpose was to live in harmony, yet the conditions we set to achieve such just didn't seem to fit.

One outstanding concept was provided to me by my Father, at least this is one of which I can immediately recall my refusal to accept. This was the importance of money as the primary source of all wellness in life. Not only did I resist this idea and demand that friendship was the most importance part of Being, but I actually had to go through a process of resolving this self-created idea. For quite some time my relationship with money reflected my inability to accept such as important, and as a result there was a lack of security, as well as a lack of sufficient financial structure to really work towards my individual potential.

Another concept, more subconscious in nature, was the impression that I was unworthy of happiness, of success, or wellness. I had looked at the conditions of my childhood as a direct example of a curse, that I was a fool, a lost soul, and more than likely trapped in a karmic loop. Wether it was separation from my Mother, Father, or the constant attempts during my youth to medicate or "fix" me on some level or another I am unsure, more than likely it was a compilation of it all. Without real choice as to what I believe of who I was, what I was deserving of, this pattern worked its way upon me until finally the discovery of worth and importance in this life was revealed.

I can see that no matter how a belief is formed, that only when awareness is brought into such, through recognition of action, thought, or feeling, can the purpose be revealed. A concept that does not serve One's purpose, the way they would like to live, the truth of who we know our Self to be, actually serves for such to be realized. This is how the workings of belief seem to function in society in general. Yet that bridge of which on one side is living a pattern and the other is the awakening of truth resulting from the pattern is a mystery in It's Self.

This process of solidifying our understanding, intentions, and therefore actions, of our experience and what we create is by far one of the most intricate patterns of Nature. The complexities are quite comprehendible, and I will leave the contemplation of such to the reader. In other works in and about this blog you will find more information on Belief, what I really want to focus on is how we emanate an energy according to the state of our perception. We are discussing a very fundamental quality of our reality, of Nature, and as there is so much to be said, sometimes we are best to just leave the details to the epiphany of the individual.

The focus of this article is how One maintains an energy of mystery or uniqueness within their own Being. How we can be to the world a product of the world or a catalyst of which the world has not defined, but our own consciousness. There appears to be three vital points within this progression: First we are defined by our experience, then we question our experience as such is relative to who we are and what we create, then, finally, we bring consciousness fully into all of our Being, allow possibility to dictate the universe, and become a independent source of creation.

We transmute the concepts and patterns of belief in life through our consciousness, through what we find is true through relation. Of course we also forgo this process and just hold concepts that are not verified in our reality beyond the superficial observation of such.

Let me say again, we either create according to what the state of the world has taught us or through what we as individuals have discovered within. That is the bridge, the crossing occurs when we go within.

The definitions of life become personal, we find our special place as a conscious co-creator of reality rather than just being a component of a preexisting system. We free ourselves through inner contemplation, or even meditation, we see that what we find in our experience does not always correlate to the popular system of belief.

So this mystery, this dynamic movement of energy where definition is temporary, is projected from us into the world. The mind is working with energy, a very vague and mysterious concept It's Self. When the world is in transit, and we are not just perpetuating the static structures of society, we become a magnificent catalyst for the same change to occur in all those who meet us. We become an independent universe within our shared universe, one where the perspective provided by life has blossomed into a conscious creation.

Oh how beautiful this idea is, the gates to heaven seem to open at this point. The majestic unfoldment of Nature seems to exist specifically for this purpose, that we may expand possibility into our own realms. This is potentially the highest purpose of what we call illusion, that we may become each a point of reference for how diverse we can be. When we relate to another and we find a mysterious world where the transience of possibility is captured into a moment of Being we are seeing a reflection of God so pure.

All rests upon unity, that through our connection, through our shared experience the individual consciousness can shape the world through perception alone. That from our independent source or experience can trickle out an energy of mystery, that which can ultimately transform this world into a place of which each time we see the eyes of another a universe collides with our own.

Today I am so very grateful, inspired, and brought into bliss by this thought process. A song comes onto my itunes that resonates as an anthem, a perfect song to make the soundtrack of this moment. Who created this song? How magical the inspiration of their life has been filtered into a symphony. Oh, how the world fills with mystery upon this revelation!

Thank you for reading, feel free to leave questions for that which was not clearly understood...there is much to be discussed!

Blessed Be,

Nathan

From Singularity, to Duality, to Triality and back

Last night I was reading a book by Jean Dubois called "The Experience of Eternity", such a marvelous work by an unfathomable channel of understanding. He was writing about duality in a way I had not considered such before...a rather rare and astounding happening when it comes to contemplation of the dynamics and structure of energy as of late! Let us dive into the mysteries of how this vibratory field of consciousness puts It's Self together, untangle this web of possibility and inch a little closer to the verge of which we need only to jump in order to fly.

During my own studies over the last few years I have gone back and forth from delving into how Nature divides and comes together, considering the multiplicity of separation. At the peak the idea that life is full of triads, where all dualities have a central point of reference of which equilibrium rests, was resounding. When consciousness is submitted into a state of duality it immediately creates a position within the multitude of spectrums. The "I Am" of us each takes a world of duality and splinters it into a world of trinities.

Mr Dubois, the infamous alchemist, divided the energy of creation into two states; matter and spirit. With consciousness as the medium, or the source of both, then only from within it's duality does it create a trinity out of each energetic manifestation. Consciousness, the field of information that is infinite, is narrowed down or coagulated into these two energies, of which each has it's own spectrum of qualities....It is experience, or the observation of duality, that serves as the third point, the axis, or the reference to which the duality may exist.

The journey into consideration of separation as a vital means for consciousness to discover and comprehend existence is a perilous path, and as many have found, we are best to consider such within a envelope of mystery. We do not seek to solve, to reach a finite of the infallible and eternal immaculate. Rather we resolve, we tinker within an already perfected mechanism and in doing so reveal higher and higher states of consciousness. The frequency and wavelength of the vibratory space awareness brings forth simply extends within and that retracts into expression.

For me this path is a narrow edge of which on either side rests chaos. On one side rests singularity, an indefinable singularity of which position within such is lost, on the other is the most obscure abstraction of the singular into a meaningless nothing. Matter and Spirit, a spectrum of which two qualities are observed by a third, an axiom that is the conscious Entity.

In practical terms we first acknowledge the unity of all things, the idea of duality leads us to cringe. Our world seems dependent on the recognition and utilization of our Oneness, and this is very true. If we live and act in a way that represents our absolute interconnectedness then the physical seems to harmonize. How could we fail materialistically if every action is a reflection of the knowing that all is One? When consciousness divides into matter and spirit the heart of each is the key quality of the opposing polarity. For Spirit it is the separation of the passive energy that is matter that defines such, for Matter the required catalyst for any meaning is the active energy of spirit, that which makes all manifest into a inseparable and singular matrix.

The ideas of Matter being passive and Spirit being active was also made clear during my reading. Truly I relate such to masculine and feminine energy, one being static and structural the other being dynamic and evolutionary. This has been the central theme in a great deal of my thoughts, feelings, and creative endeavors over the last year, and yet the central point had evaded me.

I would say child, or the fusion of both static and dynamic was the central point of the ultimate duality. Now, thinking on such from the perspective being formed of this new insight, I see that I merely worked around an enigma, rather than asking such truly what It is. Energy is either moving or not, there is no intermediate point beyond the observation. This would mean that the child, birthed from the union of man and woman, was neither changing or staying the same...of course this just doesn't make sense. Just because on practical terms we can see that a child's gender potentially has no relevance to the child, does not mean that the psyche is not being shaped by such.

In the most Absolute context consciousness, the point of awareness we each call "I" is not the axis of the grand duality of creation, but the singular energy which is divided. Then of course once within one realm or the other duality becomes a trinity as consciousness has arisen once again as a reference within it's own creation. Now, what is the practical use of all of this?

First off, great, we don't have to nervously look away when duality is mentioned for all polarities are consciousness reflected in one way or another. This is a great relief, we aren't pushing each other away, we aren'y shunning the gross abstractions of life that are Matter, nor are we blowing off the Spirit as intangible. We accept that both are natural and universal qualities of the same thing, Energy, Love, God, Nature, or Consciousness, whatever we choose to call such.

The second bonus in this line of contemplation is how we apply the themes of duality into the opposing polarity, that we see that not only does one give rise to the other, but also such acts as a catalyst. Without one shred of unhappiness, or a rise in one's joyous state to therefore redefine the degree to which one was happy previously, we could not know happiness. We need change to have any means to even acknowledge a the existence of a quality, situation, or thing.

With all dualities giving rise to each other, being non-existant without that which such is not, then we can be grateful for It all. Not only are we filled with gratitude, but we can fathom that perhaps the challenges of this very moment are serving a moment to unfold for the discovery of a great new quality of the manifest to arise.

We have read and studied the idea that ego is not our enemy, and we can see how through fear we find trust. That the distractions of society can inspire one to question, to look into the illusion and see what feels real. The possibilities are endless when we submit to this prime property of creation and when we harness the power of such in the blissful serenity of total acceptance we can quickly transform and resolve each thing, both within and in the world around, into it's highest potential.

For this is really the goal of Nature, a system of creating better and better versions of It's expression has to reach some sort of climax. This climax is the harnessing of even the most difficult to comprehend or accept energies or functions. When we as individuals become Nature Self-realized we can utilize the mind and the power of relation, of analogy and metaphor, to cause our own shifts, each with intention and full awareness.

Remember, if you can find such as truth within, that only through the Many can the One be realized and only through living as One can we as Many ascend together into the highest potential of our creation.

Namaste,

Nathan

The Acceleration of Ascension

We are approaching the pinnacle of evolution, a radical turning point for all life, and yet in this moment it already exists. There are many theories and angles to consider what exactly is shifting, what is approaching, or what exactly is happening to this world, while what is really important is what we feel and believe inside before and beyond what others may suggest. Lets take a moment to open our awareness to possibility, and see what resonates as truth.

Nature has this paradoxical way of creating progress through any circumstance. Obstacle creates adaptation, the superior traits prevail directly through the adversary of the challenge. This is unmistakable in all of life, that is up until we reach the human condition, the expression of creation that is all we are.

Looking at the complexity of Being as an individual, a community, or society, there appears a great deal more to encounter in order to continue on this process. There is not always one solution, one creature may grow a tail while another grows wings, the diversity of life is a thriving example of this. The energy that has manifest as the objective world will express the utter depth of It's existence, no matter how long or intricate the process must first become.

What is time when countless years pass in order to birth a galaxy, to form a sun that can bring forth life on what was once a barren chunk of earth? Here we are living the crescendo of creation, building the static charge of passion that is to explode into a dynamic state, the anticipation is palatable. We as Nature have long created this world that we may awaken within a body, to taste and smell the height of creation. We have only to recognize this as an individual for such to fill awareness of the moment with infinite wonder.

Many questions come to mind that would seek to kindle the fire of excitement as to what it means to Be, yet if you cannot hear the symphony then to pry at the realization of the unfoldment of such would be silly. One word passes through mind a second time, and now a third, this word is "patience". We can go so far into what could be, we can stew about over the endless concepts and components that illuminate a field of probability, when ultimately the end result is a simple whisper to hold onto the feeling and be present with what is at hand.

Here we are at a time when sweeping change can happen in a matter of weeks and go nearly unnoticed. The world can appear distracted and pacified or it can seem as I have found such to be, vibrating faster and faster. That divergent tendency of Nature has come to a state of near Absolute Entropy, where ideas travel at the speed of the internet and no news can remain in the shadows for too long. Instead of growing wings or tails we have developed out inspirations, our talents, and while doing so we have prepared the world as a catalyst for a radical new reality to emerge.

Perhaps most important are the underlaying concepts that lead One to considering these possibilities, but since we are here in my cozy nook of expression we can parlay from the specifics. The heart of all I could ever share is that we are Nature, that we are each the culmination of all creation as both source and subject. We are so unique and special, we are the workers of a singularity that is discovering It's Self. The current that runs through all these ideas is that of inner or self-evident truth, the only way the Absolute can be reached, through the portal of One's own consciousness.

So Nature's design is of evolution, and in this sense of things we can find a few obstacles, or what can be more rightly called opportunities, that lay between the current state of the world and the potential of which the highest vibration existence is maintained. We speak of sustainability, of ecological compassion, we talk of sharing wealth and our right to have freedom, prosperity, and peace, while we in most cases go as far as damning the potential catalyst of such. We are best to recognize what good can come of our difficulties, of what may at first seem to be defects, for it is through such we bring about the change that provides growth.

The unconscious state of the ego, our fear of lack, loss, or death, holds within a mustard seed of luminance, of brilliant revelation. All of Nature resolves, even when this means a returning to the source, as a tree becomes dirt to foster nutrients for the furthering of life. No thing becomes nothing, all is in a cycle of which the only thing that escapes, is that which transcends the need for assimilation.

Trust is found through the constant questioning of reality, or the trust of which there is an ever present peace regardless of emotional state. When we fear we are feeling the possibility, we are grasping ahold of how vast the unknown is, and yet we are missing the keystone, the one bit that makes it all shift into a state of unity and fulfillment. This keystone cannot simply be described, handed off as a torch after a short run around the track, we must each build the arch of comprehension, discover our position in existence, if we are to know how the keystone can hold it all together.

By the way of one sentence I can say that in my experience the keystone of all is within the contemplation of Nature through the act of relation. That the ego can be brought into a higher vibration, one where all the qualities we know so well of such can inspire rapture, acceptance, willingness, this is the challenge we now face. Through this redefinition, this recapturing of a quality inherent to the body and mind, we bring forth an ascension of spirit.

The world is as a ball of clay, perhaps disfigured and in need of great attention to be reworked, yet still the raw material of bringing about a spectacular shift in what we know as life. The hardware is all right, perfect as only God can lend, yet the program is outdated, ready for an upgrade. We are the programmers, and if we are to traverse this time of which our awareness rests we must choose to consciously abstract the highest potentials and mold both the inner and outer worlds to reflect such truth. We have the power of choice, and if we look around for just a moment, perhaps we can see evidence that we are ready to take the reigns of creation.

Through the alchemy of the spirit, by way of reformatting the design of mind, we change how we interact, what we create, and therefore the content of this miraculous planet and space. No matter how deeply engrained an individual is with a system of opposition, a resistance to becoming One's highest state, it only takes one moment for all this to resolve. We ascend one by one, gathering each our own point of reference of the same picture, a masterpiece that lay just below the dust of our past.

The current adaptation we are discovering is a new program of Nature, one where we do not need an obstacle to bring about progress. The mind is our greatest gift to our Self, a tool of which energy can be shifted from one state to another. Through mastering our fear and apprehending an unbreakable trust Nature reaches completion and a new story begins.

So where do we find trust? How can we see beauty when our lives are filled with oppression, superficial conditions that seem to demand to dictate our lives? This can only be answered for each our own Being, as this is what I have found and can only but consider that another way is possible. Then again each breath is an opportunity to find this trust, to feel the perfection of creation, to realize the epiphany of "I Am." For if in this moment something is then such must be, for all that has come before has created this moment and all that is enables the future to hold the potential It does.

We have advanced in a rather short time considering the estimated time it takes for one species to diverge into two or more species. Our ages of discovery, technology and understanding, have come about in shorter and short spans of time. It is said that we can see the entire change of how society operates in one lifetime now, that the movement of change is electrified. Only one hundred years ago science could not comprehend the medical advances we now have, the more advanced we become, the more we learn, and this process seems to fold in on It's Self, growing exponentially while expanding inwards.

There is no void in creation, for the manifest is OF the void, the space of God's body has been filled. Such a space is of endless depth, and to fathom such a system of perpetual creativity all we need is a seed, to consider the world by relating to the birth of new life. We are bursting forth from the soil, realizing we hold all the resources we need to manifest a heaven on Earth. yet no matter what we imagine, no matter how we dream the world may become, our expectation will always be exceeded. This is a wonderful quality of our creation, that we chose not to know so that we may always have a grand and new world in each moment to discover. This is how perfect life is, how incredible this ascension process is. We need not wait another moment to harness the potential.

The rest of the world may need to catch up with you, evolved as you have become, so again, remember to be patient. Be compassionate without condition, be grateful, and make art out of your every breath. We rise up, into power, into peace, into a higher vibration, we ascend into the world we chose to create. May we all share this experience together, as one family, one tribe, One singularity that is Love.

Blessed Be,

Nathan

The Nature of Mind

What follows is the channeling of possibility, a realm of understanding that is beyond what science or biology can offer from the limited stance of defined "fact". The information I offer is what I have come to realize through contemplative meditation, relation to the processes of Nature, and research into the scientific, spiritual, and biological works of others. We can dive into possibility and see what feels right, yet there will always be mystery enshrouding the Absolute truth of the minds workings. For this is how creation works, we leave just out of reach the realms of which comprehension would result in separation from the reality we share. My only hope is that those who would seek so find a resonance within that sparks a curiosity about life and It's fantastical workings, that we may share this endeavor of life as a mystical and perfect process.

The Mind is Nature's greatest gift to It's Self, a point of expansion where creation has found the ability to become Self-realized. By "Self" I am referring to the world of experience, the content of life of which we observe and interact with beyond Being. Through the growth and resolution of an individuals mind we become a point of reference for all else external while also solidifying out own position within creation. We become Nature awakened within Nature, a catalyst for the highest potentials to be realized.

As all else in life, the mind is made of divisions within divisions. None are any more important to recognize and develop as the next beyond that which is for the individual more relevant. We have Unconscious, Subconscious, and conscious Mind, of which our state of Being is decided. Then there is Ego, ID, and Super-ego, the parts of mind of which our interaction with the external is decided. Each of these qualities and realms of awareness are unique and vital to the rest, the structure of the mind is truly an immaculate one.

Let us take each of these six aspects and briefly delve into comprehension of the possibilities. As I normally suggest, Truth can only come from within the individual, and so it is for your own point of observation and interaction that the following can contain importance, relevance, or realization. What is true for me may be quite different for another, and although there appears to be certain Absolutes we can agree to share at the depths of introspection, even there do we find difference in application and meaning.

The unconscious mind has to do with the structure of reality, and very much so the shared reality. The world where each person interacts and leaves an energetic imprint for the rest to observe is the space of the unconscious. Now, we normally refer to "unconsciousness" as when there is a lack of awareness, and this can also be true. Yet when we use the term in this way we are talking about action as a result of subconscious process. We enter a space of which comprehension escapes us, of which awareness has little to do with what we are creating or observing.

Unconsciousness in the mind represents a space of which intuition is drawn from beyond our own conscious reason. This can mean that we are reacting to emotional data without applying rationality, this can also mean, very simply, that we are not aware, that we are driven by an underlaying program. This program lay in the subconscious, yet holds roots in our deeper reality independent of choice.

Perhaps unconsciousness is the most difficult to put into definition, as inherently such is without definition. The dark space of the mind, that which the light of consciousness must trickle from the subconscious inwards. The deepest reaches of mind, where the fabric of existence is integrated into Being, where the integral structure of Being rests.

The subconscious is a whole different story, the subconscious programs the unconscious as an intermediary for what we can acknowledge in our own active thought. This is where most of the magic happens, at least the magic that enables us to experience the unconscious structure through the portal of consciousness. We are not talking semantics, we are actually referring to depths of mind to which the Entity of consciousness experiences life. There are many ways to comprehend each level, yet only the subconscious realm can act as a platform for our travel into the depths of the unknown.

As children we are driven by unconscious process to program the subconscious, to create our minds layout, the ego, super-ego, and ID as we mentioned before. While the unconscious is the raw materials of a city, the subconscious is the content which fills such, the streets, buildings, parks and places of our life. We can repave, remove, or build new roads entirely, but the unconscious Earth still remains the platform to build such upon. So we begin to see through relation how the mind functions.

In this way consciousness is not only the great "I Am", the spark of awareness that observes what the Being creates, but also the active force of which all other levels of mind are tuned and aligned. The subconscious is the space of which the arrangement occurs, where we can apply the light of consciousness, the truth of which we have abstracted feeling from logical comprehension, and can therefore apply our free will.

Free will is not an illusion, although on most all dimensions of such we experience it as such. Emotional data wells up from the subconscious, through the checking upon experience, or the programs provided by an individuals life experience, and is then brought into the heights of which thought can access such. This can be an unconscious stream of thought of course, where we are simply relaying data as such is processed, without even a moment of direct interaction.

A state of intentional existence, where we directly apply a foundation of conscious truth to the subconscious, there by offering a new structure for the unconscious to integrate, is by no means an simple or easy place to reach. Free will is available to everyone, yet the content of our lives, the infinite information of the DNA and the bloodline that has developed such is pervasive. It is the light of awareness, the breaking down of structures which do not serve, that allow us to apprehend and apply this force.

We have safely hidden free will behind a perfect program of Nature. The design of which brings us to the path of which choice becomes an active factor. We must reach this passage, we must be given this opportunity. Wether or not we can abstract enough from the subconscious into the present moment and into our awareness to illuminate this potential is a matter of the individuals process, or karmic path.

Do not resign that the path of which You walk is that of unconsciousness, that of a perilous and inevitable reality. The recognition that what is created is a result of all else is the major portal for entering into a fully conscious realm. Only a sliver of acknowledgement is needed to break the thin yet pervasive layer of which free will rests behind destiny. For it is our charge as the living consciousness of Nature to transcend the original design, and become Ultimate creators within creation.

At this point the ego-super-ego, and ID comes in, the three depths of interaction. The resolution of these qualities of mind are what determines the amplitude of an individuals will. When I say amplitude I am truly speaking of vibration, for all is a spectrum of vibration, where consciousness and life can be related to the workings of sound.

The mind can be appear feeble and only slightly intriguing when we only consider such as a biological component, a limited, finite bit of matter. When we recognize that the sensory data of Being is interpreted on an incredibly deep level, that of which a matrix of vibration is transformed into physical reality, and such is not just an arbitrary thing we call "energy", we open up the possibility for amazing leaps in awareness and comprehension. The idea of energy can expand into an incredible array of potentials, or we could simplify such into just electrical charges, whereas no justice is done to the apparent truth.

As everything else in life, the three qualities of which our Being is integrated into life can be resolved into a high vibrational state. We will get into these in another blog, for we have traveled far and wide already, and there is much to consider. Possibility has become our ally, we have considered the unknown on a scale to which we are normally not offered.

Through this work we can find that the unconscious is not a bad thing, nor is such just a state of Being. The unconscious is a depth to which the immaculate structure of connectivity, of our shared reality, is enabled to be. When we do not apply consciousness, and instead simply react to what is happening, we are following the design of Nature, and we cannot falter. As we find the lessons do not come as easy in this way, they come direct and sometimes with great repercussions. Yet one way or another the unconscious mind will bring us to the path of free will, we need only to recognize this and actively choose to ignite a fire that has smoldered within as potential.

The subconscious has become the layout for how we rewrite the story of life. Our chemistry set, our city, our playground for unfolding the potentials of consciousness. We need nothing, and yet if we are inspired to do so we can radically shift existence through conscious interaction with the subconscious.

Consciousness, oh beautiful Entity of existence, how great you are. Magnificent and infinite child of Creation, eternal flame of the Divine...what will you create? Thank you for choosing to be born into a body, for choosing to illuminate life with your radiance. Thank you for Being, for reading this blog, and considering possibility, for we are each a drop in the ocean of the all, and yet as we are inseparable from the ocean, we are also this vast well of Creation.

Blessed Be,

Nathan

The Breath of Life

Recently a friend was making an inquiry to me about sacred geometry and we reached a question I had no answer for. This is always an exciting happening, some new possibility to ponder upon, a turn of which mystery illuminates. There is no feeling of need or seeking for all to be defined, actually my way is to let everything be dynamic, to hold a light grasp on how such is perceived. At the same time the question was just right for me to sift around in the potentiality and see what truth rose to the surface.

When describing how energy can unfold from one point there are two ways I deduce such, the first is through points which accumulate and create the dimensions of space, the second is through awareness expanding through spherical movements. Building a matrix of energy seems to call for both of these varieties to take place, yet consideration of this sort is dependent on a rather indefinable foundation, a void, vacuum, or nothingness that seems to be.

Paradox has to be One's bedfellow in metaphysical contemplation. There are Absolutes in creation, just as two plus two equals four (except of course when it doesn't!), but how do we define that which is in principle no thing? Okay, so this wasn't the question that put me into reflection, but it is the fork in the stream of thought that provided remembrance to a quality of Nature that had slipped from consciousness, even if only temporarily.

Through relation the solution was readily available and it took a matter of hours before I had something to offer. The question was something of the sort "why can't we look at both ways at the same time? where do the straight lines and curves meet in expansion?" My first idea was that we can't look at both happening in the same moment unless we are there, creating something out of nothing. That to combine the two is the essence of creation, and such would be as a seed falling from a tree. The difference between a story about a salad and actually eating the salad, some things must be experienced to be grasped even in the slightest.

Then it came to me, these are two ways of expansion from a masculine logical perspective, a static system of growth. All that is static can be comprehended as such through definition, through the masculine way of forming a structure. Yet the feminine is the movement off of this structure, the feeling that pushes one into two, or draws awareness into the sphere of It's Self. So there are two different parts that are also inherent to this system of quantifying energy and how the manifest world can be. The definition and the feeling.

If we can think the masculine side of creation than we can certainly feel the feminine side. Neither of these suggest that we have to transcend the physical or practical existence of such, for to Self-realize through a body is to already be in a body. Seems silly that we would come all this way just to be undone, let us not have fear of this faint possibility. If the prospect interests you than by all means don't let the way I see such represent anything more than just that, one perspective.

The feeling has been found off and on for me when I relate to birth, to a seed in the soil or that in the temple of the Goddess. What is found is the precursor that is not a void, creation appears to arise from content when we consider how anything can come into being as such is at this moment. A point of reference where everything coalesces into one, like the last word written on a cosmic book. A universe must be born into creation from another, this is what relation speaks to me.

Here rests that great epiphany we find immediately following that of "I AM", that "Nature IS." This is the tether of where all life flows from the vast unknown, a Tree of Life in the garden of eternity. The paradox that tenderly holds all that is like a wisp of smoke in It's fingers, dripping from It's lips as a vibration awakened into life. We are many and we are One. We are all that is and we are the reflection of a radiant light, fractures into countless rays, each unique and as glorious as the next.

We can be a woman and consider the masculine, or be a man and contemplate the feminine, but it takes two to tango. We must dance about in the bliss of union to create life, and while we build a static foundation, we are birthed from the dynamic. It is the Mother who brings the Son, the flower that produces the fruit. So the swirling about of the cosmos, the soup of divine potential, comes into focus through the energetic progression I spoke of briefly, and there is a separation when child is first born....but we are born in the world of our parents, into the Grace that is God. We are born into, not apart from, we grow as a seed into the immaculate forrest where our family awaits us.

No matter how far we wander we are always within something. We are always of creation, and therefore we always have all we need to find within us the feeling of birth, the feeling of newness, a reawakening from slumber into Being.

How does energy expand? Through contraction, turning inside out and right-side in, twisting and flowing about as a vortex that rises and falls at the same time. There are many ways to find the "sacred" that is of pure geometry, there are many ways to combine concepts and perspective into realization just as there are many ways for One to feel the movement of energy.

Now I see the union of the masculine concept of energy expansion. The point is a sphere, traveling straight lines while spinning about in the space of awareness. Connecting the central points of this Self-guided probe of existence we find the points that make up the masculine energy grid. Sometimes I forget that the flower of life is made of spheres, that to contemplate the tetrahedrons and octahedrons of geometry is to simply find points of reference within a sphere or within It's movements. The answer was there all along. Apparently sometimes we have to walk about when we have lost our way if we are to find a familiar marker, a post for which the memory and intuition of direction can rise out of.

I look forward to writing further about the specifics just mentioned. The familiar sense that creation is comprehendible from within creation by way of relation has been brought again into awareness. Never lost are we when only we go inside. The mind, the body, this world, filled with curiosity, energy, entangled strings of Nature discovering It's Self all rising as a feeling. Then trust billows forth from the fire within, radiating out as a warmth that could melt the ice of unconsciousness thought Being alone.

Great Mystery, parent of all that is, thank You for this reflection. For all the questions and challenges of perspective that initiate moments of awakening. The more that is shown in the web of possibility the more profound the silence of thoughtlessness. When the paint of life fills the canvas there is only a choice to consider or not, the natural state is just to look, feel, and let grow the light of inspiration.

May all your moments be filled with presence, gratitude, and art, your past be filled with lessons well learned, and the future riddled with endless opportunities to discover and infinite mystery to inspire.

Blessed Be,

Nathan

Hello possibility...

Sitting on my porch, looking out at the neat row of plants along the wall, a flower catches my eye. "Let me know you", I ask to my surprise. Then it comes to me, how can I know a flower? The seed from which it came, the way it stretches into the light, changing the sun into energy, the perpetual breath of prana that is it's existence, all little ideas mixed into a vast field of potential. "I will show you what I am if you will only see that you cannot know me", the flower responds....and in minds eye a vision blossoms.

First the energy is overwhelming, the fractal pastels of light shimmering as an ethereal diamond. The thought recedes until a silence spills forth from mind, into awareness, dripping into all sensations as pure presence. Then the vision shifts, a separation occurs of which all is know as part of my own existence and an incomprehensible sense of gratitude for the entirety of Nature as part of my Being breaks the silence.

Coming back into my awareness of body, leaning forward eagerly in my chair, the world telescopes into focus. As a whisper I hear "a glimpse is all I can show you, for that is all the vision from embodiment can withhold, there is only possibility within knowing". For One cannot "know" a flower, even when grasping the immaculate through a moment of relation, all that truly resides when again I am I is possibility.

In general we have defined knowing through the masculine, that to "know" is to have a static unchanging concept of how something exists. A chair is held in knowing as being stable, that we can sit on it without a thought, yet even a chair can collapse under our weight, or perhaps hold an unnoticed whoopie cushion for our surprise and delight. Now we don't have to be fearful of these possibilities, really we can be quite excited about them, as we know even a little fall can provide a much needed lesson or realization.

The idea that all is in a state of change is quite a general agreement when openly considered between individuals. Actually this is one of the few truly static qualities of Nature, an unchanging principle due to the paradoxical function of such. Let me briefly share the "four Laws of Creation" as quoted through the channeling of the Entity Bashar.

-You exist, and in some form you always will.

-The One is all and the all is One

-What you put out you get back in

-Change is the only constant -except for the first three Laws.

All of these laws can be found as Absolutes, or static functions of Nature, through the introspection of One's own Being and Self. As I understand to put all of these into the context of "I" leads to the Absolute sense of such. My assumption is that they are spoken as "you" in order to skip over the need for explanation as to the difference, which I will also pass over for the time being.

So much opens up when we recognize possibility as a fundamental part of perception. As we redefine "knowing" as a moment to moment process of experiencing the culmination of possibility, we rather let go while holding on. We share reality, as such appears to be so, and in this way we are never lost. We can loosen our grip on the idea of fact or truth, centralize such to our own experience, and yet still stay interconnected to all else. This is a wonderful gift that can be used to define singularity, or even the akasha if so chooses. We can bend, yet never break, this blessing of One world.

One of my favorite ways comprehending possibility becomes radically beneficial is in the art of relation as I often speak of. When we don't define a person, thing, or situation as static according to what subconsciously we believe we welcome so much vibrant energy into our Being. This is really the only way relation is possible, for if we know what a person is then we have reduced them to this proverbial chair. We actually contain them within our beliefs, and in doing so we energetically limit their own ability to be dynamic.

Everything is in a state of change. I can know a pencil writes on paper, that it came from a tree and other components, I can define it through what such appears to be for sure. Yet when I look deeper into the pencil there is so much unknown, truly it is enveloped in infinite possibility while the existence of such to me is but a sliver, a moment of context. How many people contributed to the creation of this simple thing? What will it draw, write, or how could it be used in some random situation as the solution to what could be a great trouble?

Oh, the world illuminates when we let go of knowing. When we trust in what is as full of potential, ready for the glory and purpose of our Being to unfold, we open the door for great understanding to be had. We find the underlaying truth of all manifest within our experience, that we do not truly "know" anything.

The mind is a magnificently divine machine. The space we open up to when possibility is welcomed actually frees up the energy the mind can access. This is how synchronicity can be maintained, how manifestation can become immediate. For me this is the utilization of zero-point energy, that when we do not control the mind through limiting beliefs we empower such instead. All that is required is a consideration of possibility, to harness the idea that all is in a state of change, to let go of our need to control the external through definition.

"The more I know, the more I know nothing". The nothing is this possibility and the closer our relationship with such becomes the more Nature reveals the truth. As we open more and more space for the dynamic to fill our lives the more we find an unshakable trust. We grow closer to everything in our life by freeing it from our subconscious control.

Oh possibility, thank you for being.

Bridging health to wellness

Today a notion comes to mind that feels so relevant for so many in my life. As a reminder for my own awareness, the idea of healing and wellness being very different seems quite important. Of course, as I naturally declare, the truth of such is either found within or not had at all. My intention is that the observations shared with me by God could be related to One's own existence and henceforth be the basis for truth to be discovered. Certainly any words I would say are but a reflection of the readers own internal process, as above, so below, as we find inside, we see outside.

There is a subtle notion within the word and concept of "healing", when abstracted from subconscious process and brought into the light of awareness we begin to dispel such. When we heal we automatically create a point of which something is wrong, not working, broken, or needs to be changed. Now of course practically speaking this is certainly valid, and even if we are to shift how we look at such there still may be a need to find external solutions. Yet to first recognize the meaning of the condition as relative to our growth and development as an individual is to take the first step of transcending the cyclic nature of healing and enter into a state of wellness.

Where wellness comes in is that the difficulty or imbalance is first a marker for our focus of attention or our patterning of beliefs. We go from the inside out, rather than vice versa. When we encounter such as a manifestation externally, in our state of Being or the conditions of our life in general, we either understand such as our inner process manifest, or don't. At this point of recognition we are only touching the surface, as this is just the first layer of awareness into the process of coming into wellness.

So, first we bridge the gap between our world of experience being separate from the internal, then what? Here we are inside our bodies, feeling and thinking each moment, while under some sort of discomfort of our body or situation. What is the next level of awareness to consider?

Now there is another disclaimer, and I recognize that of all truth of experience I could be inspired to share this is perhaps the keystone of all else. If we are to notice that our process of Self discovery, self unfoldment, the revealing of how our purpose manifests into life, then there has to be something behind all of It. For me this comes as the great "I AM", followed immediately by "Nature IS" or "God IS", if you prefer.

I AM, therefore God, Nature, or the cosmic forces of Life have called me into Being. I must be a part of a Divine process, a Divine expression, of which how could there be fault? If there is no mistakes in a creation of such magnitude, just as the sun and stars spiral about as our planet does while maintaining the capacity to allow life to be, then how could any instance of my life be anything other than perfect?

So the signpost has been realized and a deep truth has been considered....all of the sudden our imbalance has become a catalyst for deep fundamental change to rise from within. We discover gratitude for the lesson, for a reminder no matter how intense or subtle. Rather than Being in a process of healing, where we subconsciously through definition put our Being in a state of imperfection, we are unfolding as a flower. A bud is not wrong because it has yet to open, nor is anything wrong in our lives when we see such as a step towards the potential God offers us.

Wellness in this way permeates all levels of our Being, from the spirit, or point of awareness known as "I", to the most superficial of aspects in our day to day existence. Truly the there becomes no superficial, just like a cold or flu is not just some bug we caught for no reason other than lack of washing our hands, the distant qualities that allow our lives to be become connected to our Being. We are not just talking semantics, nor are we referring to a simple change of definition, what we are considering is a completely different way to observe Being with the consideration of wellness as a starting point.

Now unto the transition from healing to wellness, for we must give the conditions that opened welcomed these ideas rightful attention. There is so so much to discover about the deeper workings of energy, of our relationship between body, mind, spirit, and all else that surrounds our point of awareness. We have found our starting point, and when we are ready, the first step must be taken.

Be sure to make it a small step, not to leap so far that we forget to give the external attention. Beliefs have a way of needing time for entropy to occur, for the external to reflect what we have learned. We may need to continue medications or practices that hold a state of balance for the inner energy to be held in awareness. I would not claim to give anyone medical advice, but rather suggest that a change of perspective, an expanded awareness, and focused attention could lessen the severity of the experience. The deep trust and connection to the Source of all life is a powerful tool that can rise into the practical quickly, yet what is provided outside our Being is also a contribution from Nature. Let no thing go unnoticed or made less important as we grow into our highest vibrational way of living.

To hold to my intention of keeping blogs short and sweet as I can I will wrap it up now. Words as a seed, if the soil of One's life has been prepared then all we need to do is choose to cultivate and Love the fleck of energy for it to grow into magnificence. Be well, be great, give the world permission to discover as you have the possibility for true prosperity, peace, and fulfillment to blossom into Being.

Thank you for reading, Blessed Be,

Nathan

Interpreting the External

Of what does our experience provide? Does the content become a superficial listing of requests, requirements, and desires, or do we find a deeper meaning of each moment? The real question is, do we relate or do we identify with that which life provides us with?

To truly define these two ways of observing and absorbing information we each must consider our own perspective. Sharing the definitions that I have come to through meditative contemplation can give a good platform for One's own deduction, yet to truly become part of an integral foundation the truth must come from within. For this has been shown to me as how the mind operates anyways, yet if we do not make the coagulation of experience into belief conscious then we perpetuate a dependence on the subconscious to do so for us. The subconscious, as DNA and the field of energy that permeates all life called the "Akashic Record", is forever watching, eternally maintaining a point of reference as to what awareness is encountering.

I say eternally as in this moment there feels to be no beginning nor end to this spectrum of information. The further I go into my past the more I find fragmented images, feelings, and content that is my life and yet something else. There is this sense of a endless process, where even at inception of creation there is no definable point where no thing comes before. Immediately my sense of the future appears as the same and there is no delusion about life or death, there is simply no way of actually finding a beginning or end to the awareness of such.

Coming back into this moment my awareness expands into my surroundings. The crowing of birds, the sound of cars hovering past, a faint scent of smoke, my body vibrating with the energy of my daily energy practice. There also seems to be no real border as to where I begin and end, my awareness seems to spill forth from sensation into possibility. All of life is certainly infinite, even in it's most transient and fleeting state.

This expansive perception in all known directions is a quality brought about by devotion to the practice of relation. Perhaps the process has been integrated into my existence by forces outside my own will, by a greater destiny of which I discover only as such unfolds. All I truly know is that when possibility is considered, and I let go of my definitions and the associations what a situation, person, or things means to me, the world seems to open up. Everything becomes luminous with potential, the mystery of Being fills me with a subtle excitement, and a peace is brought forth that seems boundless.

The act of relation was something that over a period of time I just began doing. My interest in how other people saw the world drew me into considering the possibilities, recognizing that perhaps I do not truly "know" that which is outside my own Being. Making a study of life appears as an inevitable quality of who I am and only through this study has it been revealed why. For now, let's save the why's for later.

When introduced to the works of Eckhart Tolle and "The Power of Now" the idea of relation struck me as vastly important. I sought the definition in a variety of places, as the one suggested by the cd's a friend gave me of his didn't feel complete at the time. Eventually I came to the theory of relativity, consideration of the word "relationship", more and more the realization of exactly how potent this action and quality can be grew.

Before going any deeper let me share the definition I have found through all of this introspection. The first step to relation is to accept that all is possibility when it comes to the external content. We can never truly know a thing, we can only experience it through our own perception, or we can consider that within this vast unknowing are certain potentials. The mind seems to have an innate ability from this perspective to abstract these potentials, and thus we can begin to see through the eyes of another.

To relate is to accept that all is possibility and then to consider the point of view of that which we are relating to. This cannot be done without some level of compassion, for how can we truly see from a point outside our own Being while holding onto our judgements of such? We have to let go completely in order to fully grasp the feeling of which the external presents. The mind naturally picks an array of the highest potentials, builds a deeper sense of compassion, and then checks all of our own experience for any sort of reason that is not immediately apparent.

In relation we avoid that which is identification, we use a set of circumstances beyond our own direct experience. Now of course to consider possibility we are tapping into the higher extent of what we have been subject to in our life. Not only can we abstract the potential perspective from the content of all we have observed wether conscious or not, but we can also use the reference of DNA, all the information of all time as to what DNA has directly witnessed.

So when we identify we have this unchanging resolve as to what is true, what is right or wrong. We fit the external into our view and therefore contain it within a finite set of definitions, we lose possibility, we lose the natural sense of compassion. This is the separation that we are now resolving, certainly why the topic seems important enough to delve into here and now.

Relation is to me exactly what Nature has been working towards creating, and in the human mind is where this quality and ability has arisen. We are in this way Nature's greatest gift to It's Self. In the original design is of course this seed of potential, yet truly we transcend such through the proper application of relation. We can see an obstacle as opportunity, also we can derive truth from another's experience and skip any real need to find it out for ourselves. We can abstract truth from possibility, and in this way we can make consistent progress without having for one moment create new lessons associated with the realization of how a quality can be resolved.

The real question this inspires within is are we really using this ability? Looking all around the potential is outstanding, nearly overwhelming if I really let it all in. What could we discover if we started looking through the eyes of our challenges? Perhaps Nature would reveal the secrets of our collective purpose, or in other words, perhaps the We that IS Nature would transcend our original design and create a new program.

This seems to be the goal of Nature, to expand and discover the Self, to create expressions of Love, and to resole to the highest quality, the highest vibrational state of existence. If we are to accept each other, to accept and Love the situation we are in for the potential that lays just slightly below the surface, relation is the key ingredient. We find the truth of relativity, that all is connected, all is One, and therefore there is a chance to achieve harmony on all levels.

My prayer for today is that we may each find the power and truth of relation in the most gentle yet thorough way. That we may see a clear path to living as a pure reflection of Love. That through looking within to see the external world in a new way we can each become an agent of Nature, unified, compassionate, and determined to live as an example of our highest way of interpreting the external.

Blessed Be,

Nathan

Peculiar Progress

Every day is a new adventure and today I am absolutely in awe.

Two happenings today strike me as unique, the first not so easy to describe beyond the experience, the second with more understanding and ability to express.

First is an experience that is very new to me as of this day.

After reading and replying to a comment about time-travel in a group on facebook I went and sat down away from the computer. Closing my eyes I started to have full visions of other places, other times, from other eyes. There was a detachment to the source of what was seen through inner eye, yet I could clearly look around and see most all of the detail within my perception. Even smells and the feeling of the situation.

This is not the first time I have been on a brief journey within, this time there were no catalysts of my own will, there were no thoughts or efforts. Truly I felt subjected to what came over me.

The vision first came as being on a boat, an old sailboat in a harbor surrounded by other massive ships. I could smell the wood, the salt in the air, and feel the heavy garments on the body the vision came from. I looked around soaking up the details, the bits of goods on the deck, the shape of the boat and the blue of the sky. Then without notice the vision shifted.

I was leaping from a tree branch high in some mysterious canopy. Landing on another branch I reached out and grabbed a fig, noticing I was looking from the eyes of a monkey, seeing other monkeys around me curiously picking away at their own point of interest. It wasn't startling, it felt normal to be drifting through space in my mind...yet quietly a voice was bursting inside...what is this?

Then in a blink I was dashing through the water, breaking through waves with the ocean swirling around me. There was the sounds of the current and other dolphins around me as I swam. This was a quick moment and before I knew it I was back on the boat in a setting already familiar.

Lastly my vision came into a body much like my own, only lighter. In a field of green there were crystal pyramids all about and faces of those around me were those of people in my life today. We were angels in a heavenly space that felt like Earth, a vision I also once had in a dream for sure.

Where did I go? Such a vivid journey through different realms of Being while still fully aware of my body, of where I truly sat. Some sort of miracle happened, and yet with so many miracles and so much wonder happening there is only a slight amount of impression as to everything else that fills my life. The possibilities are limitless, so I leave them up to the reader to consider. I could narrow it down, analyze the vision, as I have become so accustomed to doing, but this just seems so irrelevant. Instead my choice is just to appreciate the wonders of life, stay grounded, and keep a strong focus on living through intention. We shall certainly see what this experience develops into, I have a good feeling something spectacular is unfolding.

Speaking of spectacular unfoldments, I move onto the second realm of thought and observation that is new and special to me. Over the last week it has been building, and as all of Nature, the culmination into expression is one of the most wonder points for such to reach.

There is a constant stream of eventfulness that reflects a synchronistic journey that all are sharing together. There are even tendrils of awareness that reach out into the world well beyond my daily immediate interactions. By this I mean that I can feel the Love spilling forth from the circle of individuals whom are directly in my life to all those who contribute in their many ways.

More and more each day are conversations arising about how we can share intentions of prosperity and abundance for each other, how our connection is deepening and rising into a very practical yet spiritual level. A sort of intuitive network is being created where we share energy in order to assist in our individual manifestations of wellness, balance, and unity. We no longer need to be separate in our process of shaping the world, we can join together and match the speed of ascension with little difficulty.

By intuitive I mean that it is not so much what we try to do, that we don't actually have to do much of anything. All we do is recognize that we are part of a process and that through acknowledgement alone we align our own Being with such. Just a moment of consideration and a huge leap is taken towards our individual and collective potential.

There are many agreements we can bring to the forefront of awareness. Plenty of details as to the highest vibrational way to collaborate our energies, but in general the matrix seems to be preexisting. We as Nature have created a foundation for which the greater or comprehension and acceptance the more we draw energy and capacity from such.

The more I write the more the feeling that there is not so much needed to be said grows. Perhaps a little more experience with the occurrence is required to really have a full expression of such. For now I will just post this and send out into the virtual realm a drop of the idea.

Truly it is already out there, I was reminded by the book "The Twelfth Insight" by James Redfield, and thus my attention to such was enhanced and given momentum. We find exactly the right information at just the right time, wether it reminds of us a previous thought or wether it is an entirely new idea. Even if it takes years to hear about this trend in tribal intention setting to reach larger groups or regions of the world outside of my immediate experience the truth that it is real and can be so powerful is very apparent.

Today I am grateful to recognize the coming together of all things in my life...the world is ready for all those ideas and inspirations we at one point saw as "before our time". Not only is the world ready but the means to make such happens is right there in front of us, through making the connection with the other people in our lives and deciding to create together a new way of Being. I hope that we can share this growing excitement, find the links that bring us together and bring about this next stage of conscious development one connection at a time.

Blessed Be,

Nathan